ytd, we hab our O lvl MT listening. after school, went SP buy SUBWAY ! yummy. i was very nice. dhen headed back to school for exams. well, e listening was easy but tricky ! grrr. answer very close. guess, i must hab e preparation to retake my chinese.

after tat, went find boyf. dhen went geylang et dian xin. dear still say he wun b full, but in e end, after he eat the chicken glutinous rice, he was full ! after tat, back home sleep.

todae, i run my 2.4km. well, i pass it ! very tired l0rhs. i run non-stop. at first, ms lau giving me discount to run lesser, in e end, she made me run full 2.4 as she was surprised tat i could do it during 14 minutes plus so she intended to make me run all. my timing was 15.36:89. so fcuking happy lahs. but was physically very tired now. after school, ask sze yee help me da bao subway. and i stay for my mock exams.

i finally found e motivation, but i still dunn0e how to force myself. ms lau pushed me to work hard and run without stopping. well, thks her for tat. tat make me realise wad are motivation. i must study ! i must do well !

i'm going off to sleep, not bc0s i'm lazy, but my energy was drained out.

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at tis point in time. i should b in school. but why i at home ? frankly speaking, morning i wake up, but heart is struggling whether wan to attend school anot. party bc0s i hab a big quarrel wib boyf.but tat wasnt e main reason. e main reason is i dunn0e wad to wear to school. well, our classmates hab plan to wear something uniform for all. yeah, white top plus vest plus black jeans. i wish to b unique not to wear according to their taste or something. but i dun wanna b e odd one out.

i'm sad todae i didnt attend school. i regret, but wad can i do ? todae was having experiment for my f&n, taking graduation photo. ohhs, i screw it in my own minds. i dunn0e, i think its reali a pity. sigh. huang peishan is hopeless lia0s.

wanna do coursework, but do 15minutes, jiu dun feel like doing. deadline reaching, prelim coming, O lvl oso coming soon. will i hab e time to finish revising ? i'm doomed. god dun help those who dun help themselves right ? wad can i expect for my result to b ? lousy ? or super duper lousy ? sigh. i reali dunnnoe wad i wan.

i hope tis is e last time, ily.

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last sat, went geylang eat dim sum. whoots so nice. when e food cames, we were all sntaching for it, except jiemin and me. shall i say tat we are retard. of c0s not. c0s my boyf took for me. hahaas. poor jiemin. hand still so short somemore. hohoho. but in e end. i took for her. when e waitress put down e food, we jiu snatch, like hungry ghost6 and ppl are laughing at us. well i dun mind, as we re having fun. after tat went buy beer. ohhs ya, when we were going off, we saw ang moh ! sooo fcuking handsome man ! me and yishin was like he was caughting all our attention. decided to went prawning but last minutes cancel and play mahjong instead. dhen went leonard hse sleep.

ytd, was kor kor bdae. crystal was sweet by baking him a cheese cake. well, it wasnt my taste, but it was not badly done afterall. sincere tat counts right ? meet up wib usuals. ohhs my god. i reali miss them much. we ent out to eat. was chit chatting and having fun. my kor so bad. see crystal take cake come, jiu run away from it. -.-'' dhehn mahjong and home sweet home.

my time table change again. -.-'' it reali sux now. monday and tuesday release late, while wed, thur and fri release early. whoots, so happy, my weight now onli 46.6kg. i grown thinner ! me already skeleton lia0s. i wanna grow fat. and, i nvr intend or purposely dun eat to have diet.

todae, a frenz of my going navy lia0s. hahaas, BOTAK, wish him all e best arhs. well, recently, i'm struck between my good frenz. well, i didnt n0e sometime, she can be so fcuk, stealing ppl things. sigh. sometimes, my frenz oso told me tat she will make use of ppl. sometimes i feel like i'm stupid of letting others making use of me. e feeling sux. humphs, i oso dun mind much. forgive and forget make life easier.

sigh, i did a wrong things todae. i skipped my mock exams. partly bc0s i'm drained out totally for running 10 mins non stop. laura lau is mad ! grrr. no offence. i haven been running for soo long. suddenly run, i feel like collapse down. head now very giddy and pain. sigh. she still say next week run 15 mins non-stop. how can i do tis ? she say we success bc0s our of our mind set. as well as our physical right ? -.-'' i think tmr i will kana scold like hell.

my form teacher has been treating me good. she nvr probe so much abt our things. but i n0e she cares. i got a guilty feeling to some teachers they're so good, but simply, i dun help myself. i'm jus plain lazy. i wish to score well, but no motivation to work hard or study. wad shall i do ? i dun wan let everybody who hold hopes for me to b disappointed.

boyf and me is alright now. my teacher told us to put relationship aside. but i think, sometimes my relationship did affect me afterall. but, i guess, boyf is understanding and try to bear of not quarreling.

well, stop here. my head very pain. gonna hab a nap.

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well, finally got e time and not lazy to update. i see spider web hanging round my blog. hmm. i already forgot wad i hab past through. rougly. holiday end lia0s. was back to school. whoots. i miss my frenz. and i onli saw my daddy on friday, reali miss her lots mans ! i miss school on monday, bc0s ioverslept. previous tat night, some argument hab happen.

i realise, there are alot for me to catch up. my homework, my coursework. but luckily, i did some of it lers. so there arent much for me to do. i hab my O lvl MT oral ytd. well, i was too nervous and my mind is in a blank. ohhs, shit. i guess i did badly, but i must say, i reali did try my best. i hope to score well in my O. but simply, i lacking e rason to study. i dunn0e why.

recently, my kor was caught in a trouble. grrr.feel like killing tat guy lahs, he so .... dunn0e wad to say lahs. he spent alot when going out. sigh. dunn0e when will he turn clever toward dealing wib girls. -.-''

later night, gonna eat dian xin ! whoots, my shrimp wrap ! after tat. dunn0e wanna go where. some dun wanna ton. but i feel like going fish prawn. O lvl is reaching in 100 plus day time. yet, i'm jus playing a fool. i dun think i derserve to score well. but i promise. i will try my best to focus all my attention in study dhen playing. i think. i should stop work or work very little.

i'm feeling abit tired now. gonna sleep for energy for tonight ! let's party !

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