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long time since i last update a proper post. well, i hab been skipping school for whole of one week. intensive MT is not for me. sigh. i feel guilty toward my daddy. she must be bored without me chatting wib her. ohhs well, not i wan skip, sometimes is purely i didnt wake up. i tends to sleep alot. sometimes, i jus dunn0e why,. e temptation of not going school was overwhelming. i force myself to and fro. but, simply not against e good and nice temptation tat i can get some rest.alot of things not done, alot of matter happening. god, i'm breaking down.ppl, advise not to assume things by ur confidence. it led to greater disappointment. same as e case i'm facing now. ppl assume me, i assume things. ppl does change. not everyone will be e same prefect person as wad ur mind think or imagine. it time for me to grow up. i hab been in such pain for quite a long time. i didnt say, c0s i reali dunn0e wad to do. i'm helpless. i'm jus a small little tiny girl. i'm emotional. i likes to cry. tat all wad i will do when facing problems. i didnt hab e courage to face it. dun care wad ppl think is wad i will say. i like to run away from e reality. but it does not help. in fact, making things even worst. wad to do. i'm oso very hurt down my heart, who ever know my pain ? mayb i'm selfish, i think onli for myself, but wad can i do ? stuck in between, being threaten all tat ? sometimes i hab enough. wish i got more courage to suicide.boyf and i was having hard time. every things are seems against us. i dunn0e. his temper was reali bad. but he reali very good to me. i'm sad bc0s he is streesed. i'm happy bc0s his smile. i hope every crsis will get over soon. boyf oso tell me and correct me from my wrongs doing. but my stubborness led to argue. c0s i will fight saying i was not in a wrong. i wun tell ppl how i feel. c0s, i think, hpw i feel does not matter. to me, wad matter most is my loved ones feel. i can suffer in silent. i can cry alone. as long as they are no problems create. who know my pain ? different ppl got different stands, tat why, me and boyf often quarrel bc0s of different views. well, i dun blame him. i noe i was over board sometimes, neglecting his feeling. i jus need time to get things right.todae, jus bc0s small little thing,causing many trouble. jus bc0s i took my kor key out. dhen my kor kor not at home. so my kor didnt hab key to go out. dhen he called my kor kor. asking either one of us to go back get him e keys. but none of us did, but to hang his call and ignore his calls. he went mad ? usinh hammer to break e lock. he manage to broke it. and went my frenz hse find us. well. he angry and throw e lock, and hit until crystal leg. poor things. she so innocent. dhen we go out talk. my kor shout at me, so i reply him by shouting too. dhen he ask me called my kor kor. i say i not his dog. so in e end, he beat me. boyf see till angry, fight wib my kor. fortunately, still manage to stop them. went downstair talk, bc0s my frenz neighbour KPO ! downstair, kor kor and kor quarrel and fight again. wth. but they stop it. kor ko was angry bc0s crystal, e victim was his girlf. so my kor say, i stand here let you throw e lock at me. dots. but kor kor say no, but instead wanted him to apologise to crystal. everything ends. sigh. small thiongs create big trouble. i hope, tis kind of incident would not happen again. after e incident, boyf talk to me. telling me next time how could i solve e matters. but kana scold by me. i n0e he meant well. but i jus dunn0e why i'm liddat. sigh.let put aside those unhappy things. later got O lvl MT paper. well. i hope i'm prepared for it. GOOD LUCK ! my bdae oso reaching soon ! Labels: dont judge bookby its cover
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About me: i'm attached and being love deeply by my boyf. I enjoy freedom and easily being cheer up with jus sweeties ! 
