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todae, wake up kidda early watch tv. after tat, rottted till playing mahjong. i hab no heart to study. i guess. i dun deserve to b rewarded wib good marks. sigh. MOTIVATION !okay, i n0e i a sux gf, i cant b e gf you wanna. cant b e gf you wish for. i dunn0e wad to say. if you feel tired, hard to bear, let's put everything to e end. tis is e last resort. i n0e, deep down in my heart, i got a millions of unwillingness. you're sweet toward me. you're e last person i would ever wan to hurt. sigh. i n0e i hab alots weakness. accpeting it does not help. i dun wan b selfish. i dun wan you keep give in to me. everytime we quarrel over e phone, its reali break my heart. sigh. frankly, i didnt feel any secure. i reali dread of getting heart broken again. i cant control my heart. i jus wan control myself for feeling real deep. i n0e you oso got e bad experiences before. its seem little things we oso cant get along well. well, i guess i hab to blame myself. as all fault lies wib me. dreadful, scared, afraid, sadness, heart breaks, all tis i will feel when i was wib you. i n0e i hab to trust and believe you. but, i dunn0e why, i simply cant do it fully. i'm sorrie. i hab given you pressure, stressed, unhappiness, sadness, and nvr been able to gib you at least abit of happiness you wish for. am i a super duper lousy gf ?! YES, I AM ! i dun wish for anything. if we reali unsuitable, why not dun waste each other time and effort, and jus let go ?! i'm tired, and i'm sure you are too. as i say, 2 person reali love each other does not mean they will last as e person might not b ur MR/MS RIGHT. sigh. i n0e i treat frenz better. c0s i dun wan b ungrateful type of frenz. i n0e i was being selfish to you. i n0e you was already not happy in e beginning. but you dun wan say c0s you wan prevent quarrel. you say you scared i angry. so dun wan say. in ur heart. i reali got so petty ?! if reali you think so, i hab nth to say. you alway say tat i dun treat you as bf, wad you wan me to do ?! ): i'm a total failure.disappointment. precious, i reali scared.
will we b fine ?! irealidolovehimmuch. nvr wanna to leave him.Labels: letting go is better ?
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About me: i'm attached and being love deeply by my boyf. I enjoy freedom and easily being cheer up with jus sweeties ! 
