♥ Every rose has its thorns, and its is posion

	Tuesday, September 30, 2008♥

	whoots. todae paper end damn early. reach home and rest. i was tired larhs. at night, pet them play mahjong again. -.-'' i'm kidda sians wib my life ! grrr. humphs. anyway, went mac buy food to eat. c0s ppl make me angry, but didnt blame him, he wasnt feeling well too. saw a senerio at mac. a lady, accused a guy for stealing her wallet when e wallet actually belong to e guy. l0lols. dhen she keep saying, " why you punch me ? " its scary larhs. coincidence, i saw longhao and ken. l0lols. -.-'' dhen e gal dunn0e why throw e man's wallet and started to run and throw mac's things like e tray, flower pot, etc. dhen e manager come stop her, she say, " you are harrasing me" zzz. and oso say " e police will not come" dots. being a kpo wasnt good, i quickly go out of e mac. last sence i saw was she throw a pictures hanging on e wall, and e glass was broken. dun treat me like tis next time. Labels: scary Blogged @ 3:36 PM

	Monday, September 29, 2008♥

	after ytd quarrel, didnt hab e mood to go for exams. sigh. but did i hab a choice ?! i doubt so. after 1st paper, he say let b frenz. i totally no more mood to study or do my second paper. at e end. i 10 plus marks nvr do. sigh. i hope i pass e paper. went home. i feel like crying in school. he todae come out, should b happy instead of sad. but things gone to tis way. but luckily, we are fine. (: i hope we b fine from now. i reali tired of quarreling lers. precious, let us last long. Labels: tgt Blogged @ 7:59 PM

	Sunday, September 28, 2008♥

	todae, wake up kidda early watch tv. after tat, rottted till playing mahjong. i hab no heart to study. i guess. i dun deserve to b rewarded wib good marks. sigh. MOTIVATION ! okay, i n0e i a sux gf, i cant b e gf you wanna. cant b e gf you wish for. i dunn0e wad to say. if you feel tired, hard to bear, let's put everything to e end. tis is e last resort. i n0e, deep down in my heart, i got a millions of unwillingness. you're sweet toward me. you're e last person i would ever wan to hurt. sigh. i n0e i hab alots weakness. accpeting it does not help. i dun wan b selfish. i dun wan you keep give in to me. everytime we quarrel over e phone, its reali break my heart. sigh. frankly, i didnt feel any secure. i reali dread of getting heart broken again. i cant control my heart. i jus wan control myself for feeling real deep. i n0e you oso got e bad experiences before. its seem little things we oso cant get along well. well, i guess i hab to blame myself. as all fault lies wib me. dreadful, scared, afraid, sadness, heart breaks, all tis i will feel when i was wib you. i n0e i hab to trust and believe you. but, i dunn0e why, i simply cant do it fully. i'm sorrie. i hab given you pressure, stressed, unhappiness, sadness, and nvr been able to gib you at least abit of happiness you wish for. am i a super duper lousy gf ?! YES, I AM ! i dun wish for anything. if we reali unsuitable, why not dun waste each other time and effort, and jus let go ?! i'm tired, and i'm sure you are too. as i say, 2 person reali love each other does not mean they will last as e person might not b ur MR/MS RIGHT. sigh. i n0e i treat frenz better. c0s i dun wan b ungrateful type of frenz. i n0e i was being selfish to you. i n0e you was already not happy in e beginning. but you dun wan say c0s you wan prevent quarrel. you say you scared i angry. so dun wan say. in ur heart. i reali got so petty ?! if reali you think so, i hab nth to say. you alway say tat i dun treat you as bf, wad you wan me to do ?! ): i'm a total failure. disappointment. precious, i reali scared. will we b fine ?! irealidolovehimmuch. nvr wanna to leave him. Labels: letting go is better ? Blogged @ 8:26 PM

	Saturday, September 27, 2008♥

	SWEET HAPPI 18th TO KWEK SHIGUAN LAOPO ! heh, laopo, see i so good, nvr wish you belated like you wish me ?! i got heart wor. hahaas, 18 lia0s. dun so IMMATURE ! its time to GROW UP ! wakakaaas. meet up very very soon. i misses e past damn lots. was rotting like hell l0rhs. nth to do, no tv watch. at e end, play mahjong. -.-'' okay, i think i'm sinful bc0s i should revise instead of study. ohhs mans ! but i reali needed some break although i think n0w cant. i gonna b mad, real mad ! from afternoon play till night, dhen till midnight ! after tat, went sleep. humphs. so ass, bluff me he downstair my hse. okay, i didnt mean to lost temper but. i dunn0e why i lost it. you can say me petty or wad. but when you reali do miss a person which you haven been seen for long, and they play tis prank back to you, you will understand how i feel. disappointment. haiis. i hope, we reali gonna to b fine. (: everything was fine after some arguments. 2 more days ! poor him. ): Labels: prank sometimes hurt. Blogged @ 12:17 PM

	Friday, September 26, 2008♥

	hohoho. ytd nvr revise my SS at all, instead watching tv and sleep. if i ever fail it, i wun b surprised larhs. but did try my bes wake up at e morning and memorise. does last minutes help ?! i doubt so. laugh * okay, todae papers end early at 9.30. sigh. think gonna rot at home. SS paper wasnt reali hard. if got memorise, sure pass i guess ?! okay, for e past 1 hrs 30 min. i been writing non-stop ?! hand damn pain l0rhs. ): no time too write. sigh. i didnt n0e how do e SBQ, and i anyhow write. didnt n0t wad i was writing, i doubt e teacher will b able to understand ?! sad* c0r crystal ask her pei me go eat duck porridge, but her mum cook. too bad, go back home rottttt. precious, 3 more days can see you lers. hab you been behaving urself ?! irealidomisshim. Labels: time pass slowly. Blogged @ 12:10 PM

	Thursday, September 25, 2008♥

	wahs. i kidda surprise he did read and find my blog. he must b very bo lia0s ?! humphs ! okay, let start wib my exams today. todae morning, wake up kidda early to memorise my geography. my first paper is english, and both my essays is either too long or too short. will i b penalize ?! sigh ! dhen, come my disappointment is e geography. i study derhs onli come up little, but most marks are gone. FLY FLY AWAY ! zzz. i dun hab any to blame expect for myself of not studying. i must work hard mans ! GOGOGO ! tmr SS paper. memorizing again. -.-'' i miss him lots. Labels: disappointment Blogged @ 11:00 AM

	Wednesday, September 24, 2008♥

	HAPPY 17th BDAE TO LEE WEI KIAT ! sigh ! tmr is e actual exams. todae reach home. study some vocab and geography. damn it ! i cant memorise and focus on it. grrr. must wake up early in e morning dhen will study and memorise better ?! todae, having stomach cramp. its was reali reali pain. went home, actually wanna study, but pain till fall sleep unknowingly. zzz. how am i going to pass my exams in tis manner ?! haiis. grrr. no mood study. Labels: memorise Blogged @ 6:37 PM

	Tuesday, September 23, 2008♥

	grrr, exams stress are going to befallen to me. i must STUDYYY ! tat wad i told myself but cant do it mans ! sigh ! i alway drag till last minutes. zzz. todae school was fine and went back home sleep. another day is wasted instead of studying. sigh. wad can motivate me to study ?! Labels: lacking of motivation Blogged @ 6:34 PM

	Monday, September 22, 2008♥

	HAPPI 16th BDAE TO LAI XIAO ZI AKA NG XUE LING ! went school todae. todae jus like wasting of time going school. did nth much. zzz. much alot lesson. decided to skip chinese as temptation of going home rest is strong. so went home, study awhile chemistry dhen watch tv and sleep. wake up eat, bath watch tv went back sleep again exams exams exams. stressful period. Labels: study study study Blogged @ 2:29 PM

	Sunday, September 21, 2008♥

	after coming back from chinese garden, they gonna play overnight mahjong. zzz. they so got e energy sia. i wasnt feeling well but still accompany him. i eat medicine, apply feng you. but it seems does not help much. after they play finish, went sleep. was tired larhs. wake up, rot at home. dhen went back dinner c0s super duper HUNGRY ! still help kor kor they all buy. at first was buying 3 sets. already very heavy and like auntie. dhen kor c0r and asked me help him. i was angry c0s i already leave mac lia0s. he dulan and shouted at me. wtf. help him buy still nid kana scold. but nvm, went back mac and buy. ppl thought i crazy. carrying 4 sets of meals back home was torturing. zzz. i would nvr volunteer to buy food again. Labels: unforgettable experience Blogged @ 2:24 PM

	Saturday, September 20, 2008♥

	todae, i cry bc0s he shouted at me. so fierce larhs. grrr. but he say sorrie afterward larhs. he say wanna took pic wib me but i dun wan. he kidda disappointed. keep saying wad ever he wan me do, i wun do it. other ppl ask sure will do it. zzz. after tat, he went work i go sleep. dhen wake up, play mahjong awhile dhen prepare go chinese garden. i wanna see e lighting so much ! hahaas. its was reali very nice althought i wasn't feeling very well. stomach pain. awww. how unbearable pain for me. hab some unhappiness but its still okay and enjoyable. thks him for taking free tickets larhs. (: some random pictures uploaded, wasnt very clear. sad* Labels: enjoy Blogged @ 2:18 PM

	Friday, September 19, 2008♥

	finally. i went school todae. hahaas. school was fine. but after school, hab to stay back to wash cars. its wasnt easy as we think, somemore, e weather was HOT ! burning ! LUCKY, we onli nid wash 3 cars. after tat, went home sleep. wake up, play mahjong awhile, went back sleep again. i was jus like a pig mans ! anyway, i'm sorrie i didnt go out meet you. sigh. how can i b a good gf ?! how can i b e gal you wanna ?! Labels: am i bad ? Blogged @ 5:47 PM

	Thursday, September 18, 2008♥

	awww, didnt go school todae as homework not print. mayb, its jus an excuse for my lazyness. c0r leonard ask him pei me go poly clinic. i was shocked. he reali woke up. wait for him prepare dhen go lers. he so SLOW ! grrr, make me wait. after tat, waited and see doctor. okay, e doctor's treatment was funny ?! i dunn0e how explain it. he ask me do some stupid reactions. zzz. dhen went eat duck porridge dhen went mac as leonard wan pang sai. l0lols. he so long l0rhs ! after tat went home. rest ! hahaas. thks him for pei me larhs. so gald l0rhs. (: after tat, sleep and wake up play mahjong. hahaas. i received a very cute dough make by him. he spent 3 hrs plus making it. although it wasnt very nice. but i reali appraciate he got e heart and sincere to make it. it nid alot patience. anyway. i like it alot alot. (: tmr must go school ! Labels: i hab slack enough Blogged @ 5:41 PM

	Wednesday, September 17, 2008♥

	long time didnt overslept lia0s. or perhaps, i should say mayb i purposely wanna overslept. c0s i didnt do alot homework. plus. i'm lazy. i wanna some rest. but exams coming. i got to buck up and go school. todae, i b predicting i will b rotting at home. humphs ! sians nid some rest. Labels: exams stressed. Blogged @ 7:37 AM

	Tuesday, September 16, 2008♥

	whoots, todae i got to laugh my ass out mans ! after school go see them wash cars. -.-'' so lame larhs. dhen got release, and while walking home. saw yishi at canteen. she ask me go singapore post wib her, i agree. its been a long long time since i go out wib her ?! hahaas, we reach e popular and its was close for stocking check till 4. so went eat kfc. l0lols. at kfc, we talked alot of funny funny thing and hab a great laugh. e funniest part is when yishi drop her yogurt. heh. dhen went home and do homework. i must resist to temptation. Labels: i misses e past Blogged @ 7:37 AM

	Monday, September 15, 2008♥

	awww, its anothwer beginning of e weeks. SIAN is wad i can say and think. todae school was fine, but i keep falling asleep. temptation of skipping chinese lessons is overwhelming. but, no choice, hab to drag myself go. do chinese compo, i was jus at there rot ?! no heart to do. sigh ! bored with works. Labels: freedom lost. Blogged @ 7:37 AM

	Sunday, September 14, 2008♥

	wake up at 3am. saw something. opps. zzz. c0s i slept from ytd 6 plus till n0w. sigh ! family ties are so weak ?! shushu's family are so bad to him. i dunn0e why he still care for it mans ! mayb i hab no rights to comment. but, i feel not worth for him. drag him come my hse sleep. :) but nvr do anything ! dhen i DID SOMETHING ! A BIG MISTAKES ?! hahaas. i shall not say out. if not, SHE KILL ME ! SHE A MONSTER ! wakakaas. dhen rot at home whole day. opps, did i do e right thing ?! Labels: wad is love tat blind beyong life and death ? Blogged @ 9:23 PM

	Saturday, September 13, 2008♥

	morning, wake up meet kor at safra. he wanna go interview, so me and shushu pei him. kor is so choosy abt finding job. zzz. say pay not good or not suitable. -.-'' if reali liddat, when will he able to get a job ?! lucky shushu clever. c0r e company using kor's name. after his interview, nid wait till afternoon dhen n0e. so went eat dhen home sweet home. i was being chased to go home sleep. reach home. slept for 4 hrs plus, wake up see tv, bath and eat, dhen went back sleep again. -.-'' same, they playing mahjong again ! grrr. is mahjong tat nice to play ?! Labels: they are addiction to mahjong. Blogged @ 9:19 PM

	Friday, September 12, 2008♥

	yo, i'm back from school ! finally, after so long, got one day reach home early. when reach home, slept for awhile. they are playing mahjong again. went out see see, c0s stay at home sians. dhen after they play finish. i going my frenz hse. :) my life is so sians. who can change my life ?! Labels: will you b there for me ? Blogged @ 9:14 PM

	Thursday, September 11, 2008♥

	forget charge phone ytd, so low batt. cant msg. no entertainment anymore ! grrr. sad l0rhs. finally scold by teacher for nvr do work. zzz. i was lazy i admit. after school, still nid stay back. sians. stay till 4 plus, dhen went home wib QAD. reach home, very tired. gonna sleep. yawn. i'm plain lazy. lazy ! Labels: wad i reali wan ? Blogged @ 6:29 AM

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	sigh ! i dunn0e why you alway think so much. mayb i not a gal you wanna. i n0e we both tired. somethings, wad i can explain i already did. wad i can prove, i already prove, wad i can say, i did it all ! so wad you still expect. you simply dun trust me. mayb is my actions and words hab made e situation n0w, i dun blame you but myself. i n0e you scare to lose things, but there's no guarantee you wun lose in e future. onli can let nature take its course. is love reali tat make ppl stress up and hurt ?! Labels: wad to do to make you believe ? Blogged @ 6:25 AM

	Wednesday, September 10, 2008♥

	nth to blog recently. life is jus like same everyday. zzz. after school, went check up. unluckily, i didnt bring my ic along ! grrr, so cant check mans ! nid go home take and go back again. msg leonard ask him pei me. dhen he say pei him go bugis later. i agree to his conditions. he alway late mans ! make me wait so long. zzz. idiot ! after tat, went polyclinic, they say nvr check, go back private derhs, its close, 6.30 dhen open. so went bugis. reach, i buy tempura eat. dhen follow leonard go change his casing, dhen went eat long john. eat lia0s, go eat sushi, actually wan eat octupus balls, but too full. -.-'' bus home after tat. after see e clinic, kindly disappointed ! c0s i grown shorter. >.<'' grrr, dhen went ntcu, saw ah qiang buying things. dhen go guardian. they spy e perfume, eeks, some sooo smelly. dhen i spy leonard whole body wib gal perfume ! its smell nice. he dunn0e how appreciate. dhen wanna drag time while waiting for ah qiang go home. so went, shop and save, dhen cheer buy mochi. after tat, while walking back, i pester leonard pei me drink soup, he dun wan. ): so no chioce. drag my feet home. saw yishi and jiemin walking, , leonard ask me hide. zzz. i dunn0e why i listen to him. crazy lia0s me. after tat went home and they gonna play mahjong. will b sitting down there rot again. i wanna eat, eat and EAT ! Labels: fun, its fun Blogged @ 6:16 AM

	Tuesday, September 9, 2008♥

	whoots, another day i hab run away from scolding. school was reali bored. keep falling asleep in every lessons. -.-'' no matter wad, i must BUCK UP ! grrr, exams next 2 weeks ! after school, went medical check up at a clinic recommend by chengwei. but its was close. so, went home tmr dhen check. i'm tired. no mood blog, feel like sleeping mans ! awwww. stressed up ! Labels: GOGOGO Blogged @ 6:10 AM

	Monday, September 8, 2008♥

	my eyelid hab been jumping so much recently, todae school reopen. i got e bad omen tat i will kana scold. but lucky, nvr tio scold. so heng ?! i got pile of homeworks to do. BUCK UP MANS ! crystal come my hse lend me her lappy do c0s my com no microsoft. after tat, went down play badminton. -.-'' healthy lifestyle n0w. but, after tat, they get bored of it, play mahjong again. yawn ! i'm tired recently. nid some good rest. Love is that feeling deep inside you holding you weakening your soul but you still want more.... Labels: exams coming Blogged @ 2:43 PM

	Sunday, September 7, 2008♥

	sigh ! tmr school reopen lia0s. i gonn b dead, homework all not done yet ! grrrr. hope wun kana scold larhs. humphs ! no nice tv show todae, so went out meet ppl. pei them talk them they started play mahjong again. -.-'' ever since when, mahjong jus like part of their life. zzz. sometimes, it left them wib no choice as there nth to do ! i going off sleep, dun wanna b late tmr. love is simple ! Labels: twinkle twinkle little star. Blogged @ 2:39 PM

	Saturday, September 6, 2008♥

	ytd so suay, went jetty in e end, rain. sleep at toilet. omqqs, its so smelly, c0s got strong sense of beer smell. -.-'' but too tired so sleep. we so act cute ?! after tat wait rain stop dhen rode home. i so tried. slept for awhile dhen wake up from bad dreams. i having it recently.dhen went meet frenz. grrr. why they jus cant stop bothering our thing. i dun wan him fan bc0s of tis. i dunn0e wad to do. sigh ! god, help me up mans ! Labels: wad shall i do ? Blogged @ 8:37 PM

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	JIEMIN tagged me & asked me to do this quiz . Topic : What conditions must your partner have ? 1. Handsome ! - not reali. but at least acceptable ?! 2. Funny like a joker - of c0s, its keep me entertain 3. Not flirt .- tat for sure ?! 4. Un-romantic .- should b romantic sometimes and someway. 5. Not smarter than me .- i wun mind ?! .6. Someone who makes me happy all the time - how i wish i can find such person ?! 7. Ungay-ish .- l0lols, i wun find guy tat are gay type ! 8. Not emo - sometimes, ppl will emo bc0s of things.! 9. Not fat & not too skinny - its okay wib me as long we like each other ?! 10. No gangster behaviour .- abit of it is better to protect me.. 11. Rich ?- not reali, as long as we got enough to provide simple needs. tag to do - Yishi , crystal , Meiling , baoyu , jolene. Labels: survey Blogged @ 8:22 PM

	Friday, September 5, 2008♥

	watching them play mahjong till late, dhen sleep, jus like my everyday routine. but, sometimes, i wun feel bored at all. after playing mahjong, going ride bike to jetty. i'm so sleepy. i wan watch show at home, yet i didnt wanna pangseh meiling. so i went. setting off. Labels: lalala. happy. Blogged @ 8:35 PM

	Thursday, September 4, 2008♥

	ytd went frenz hse stay. walking to e bus stop late at night, make me very scared. arrived at e bus stop, waiting for bus, while i chatted on phone wib laopo and dear. dhen 2 bus come. one bus is i wanna to abroad, dhen i wave to e bus, e bus infront and e bus i wanna take, thought i waving to e bus infront. so didnt stop for me to abroad, therefore, i miss my bus. zzz. lucky for me, there still a last bus. i waited dhen e bus came after 15 mins ?! lucky, e bus come alone, dhen i wave. taxi thought i waving at him. as he slow down, e bus oso thought i wanna broad on cab, almost went off too. omqqs. its so paiseh, let my frenz waited for me soooo long.. omqqs mans ! 04092008. its was most memorable day. whoots, c0s i'm very happy tat day. (: reason within my heart. humphs ! morning went home and rot and fall asleep. zzz. kor watching dvd in room. so fcuking loud ?! i slept for a while like its damn long. after tat, play mahjong again. -.-'' Labels: sleep sleep sleep. Blogged @ 8:32 PM

	Wednesday, September 3, 2008♥

	recently, my frenz hab an addiction to mahjong. everyday, come my hse play mahjong. me, everyday was jus rotting down there watching them play. wad a boring life i hab ?! Labels: wad to do ? Blogged @ 8:31 PM

	Tuesday, September 2, 2008♥

	wake up from my tiredness, sleepyness. sitting and starring at e sky. thinking of nth. sore throat now. sigh ! everything was not going e way i wanna. its true, thing are jus liddat. tat make you learn to b independent. actually wanna study, but no mood. sigh ! i going to watch tv, post when i hab better mood. Labels: atmosphere nowadays are odd. Blogged @ 2:06 PM

	Monday, September 1, 2008♥

	morning ! back to post. humphs ! jus come back from bedok jetty. caught nth. zz. its was so cold. come to n0e something. feeling so vexed n0w. feel like avoiding ppl. sigh ! cant parent jus understand h0w their children felt ?! they jus simple dun understand. thinking tat they make e wrong choice, but dun wan their children to follow. ohhs pls. n0w its different. dun compare me wib theirs situation. even i make e wrong decision. i wun cry in their hug. i'm not small. cant they let me hab my own decision and chose e path i wanna walk ?! they oso cant b wib me for my whole life. sigh ! i feeling so vexed. Labels: struck in between. Blogged @ 2:00 PM

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	If you kiss her, you are not a gentleman If you don't, you are not a man If you praise her, she thinks you are lying If you don't, you are good for nothing If you agree to all her likes, you are a wimp If you don't, you are not understanding If you visit her often, she thinks you are boring If you don't, she accuses you of double-crossing If you are well dressed, she says you are a playboy If you don't, you are a dull boy If you are jealous, she says it's bad If you don't, she thinks you do not love her If you attempt a romance, she says you didn't respect her If you don't, she thinks you do not like her If you are a minute late, she complains it's hard to wait If she is late, she says that's a girl's way If you visit another man, you're not putting in "quality time" If she is visited by another woman, "oh it's natural, we are girls" If you kiss her once in a while, she professes you are cold If you kiss her often, she yells that you are taking advantage If you fail to help her in crossing the street, you lack ethics If you do, she thinks it's just one of men's tactics for seduction If you stare at another woman, she accuses you of flirting If she is stared by other men, she says that they are just admiring If you talk, she wants you to listen If you listen, she wants you to talk In short: So simple, yet so complex So weak, yet so powerful So confusing, yet so desirable So damning, yet so wonderful... ....WOMEN! Labels: women are difficult. Blogged @ 1:47 PM

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