woke up late,but lucky nvr late for school. going on cambodia trip on mid of oct. whoots ! i so happy. nth much happen in school, was boring. onli chemistry, teacher was angry wib us say we wanna protest him. first time see him so angry, scaryyyy.

life was sux nowadays. mayb you are right, he is e most suffer as he is between us. all tis avoidable, since you say either he tok to one of us, e other will jealous. tat not reali true. i admit, i feel jealous, but i wun show out. i will jus go to another side and sit. mayb, i shall b e bad girl, b a coward, and stay at home to avoid all tis. its hurt 3 of us. deeply. its his decision he got to make. i noe he mayb b lost, mayb b stressed, but things hab come tis way, isnt it time to settle it until things get out of hand ?! now, things become more and more worst is because we dun wanna face it. all of us are jus avoiding tis. to him, i got a sense of guilt. to you, i got a sense of a betrayer. mayb, in LOVE, yes, there's no right or wrong. but think carefully, even LOVE is blind, even feeling are hard to control, do you think its right to hurt ppl ard you because of ur affection ?! LOVE should b happy and not sad and having problems like e way we are now. tis problems, i admit, i didnt handled it properly. if i able to say out e truth right from e start, mayb thing changes. mayb we dun hab to suffer so much. pursue happiness, hurting frenzship ?! i rather hab freznship dhen my happiness. i jolly n0e deep in my heart, he was confused too. he didnt wanna lost either one of us either as frenz or wad ever relationship. he feel bad, he think he was e cause, i not trying to say tat i understand him alot, but i guess tis wad he think. mayb sometimes i think too much and it tends to make e situation more and more worst. i intend to gib up as there are minor of chances and i dun wanna lose a frenzhip too. you understand ?! we shall not say who fault as its already happen, instead we can settle it right ?! its hurt seeing him so suffers. i believe you feel tat do, shall we do e best out of it and not making and causing him suffers so much again ?! by himself, he suffers more dhen both of us. mayb both of us are suffering now, mayb we hab drift apart, but i do realize tat we are not making any effort to amend e wrong, to reconcile wib each other. we jus avoid thus making things worst. i dunn0e wad can i do anymore. mayb doing nth is best. its wasnt up to me anymore, but to you. i deceive myself, i hurting myself for choosing to avoid and b a coward, i n0e i will regret, i willing to taking all blames. c0s, if i able to keep my unspoken affection, things wun b liddat anymore. you are right, we dunn0e wad will happen in future, so, we shall cherish every moment now. mayb tmr i kana bang by car i oso dunn0e. i wish to cherish everything now but not wait till its gone dhen regret, i believe you too. sigh ! but i jus wan you to noe. no matter wad happen, i b still there alway for you, regarding you as my closest dearest. i will pending for e day we get tgt and having fun tgt.

sigh ! i sorrie for my mood ytd. but things hab come tis far, i dun wanna hurt you yet i dunn0e how face it anymore. i n0e you tired, same as any of us. ur msg are so sweet sometimes. i will nvr forget ur answer to my 15 seconds question. sense of sweetness filled my heart. its reali do, i'm sorrie as i rather b a coward. i jus feel like i was jus making e situation more worst. you hab to bear wib my childish, immature thinking, and i sorrie for tat. you been so understanding and caring.


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