simplest love

2009-11-19T03:07:00.004+08:00

finally, i found e time to update my blog. my hse com was down.

woohoo ~ O lvl is finally over. but i guess, i shouldnt hold high hopes on my results. wad can a person score without studying and understand e topics at all ? i wonder. but at least, i pray hard tat i would not fail badly. sigh. although O lvl is over, yet, e burden on my shoulder isnt let go. find job is another challenge. yea, i should not be rotting at home. well, it hard to find job wib ur expected pay nowadays. and, somemore, i'm damn lazy. after O lvl, i'm slacking my life and time throughout. sleep, went frenz hse, eat is all i did. feel so sian of my life. i wanna work earn money.

wad is love exactly ? i getting blur of it. every relationship, outsiders wun noe. how abt mine ? a pretty cover page does not mean e story was beautiful and lovely, it may hab some ugly truth inside. well, how do i derserve to be treated ? with care ? with warm ? i dunnoe. if reali broken up. isit reali my fault ? who noe how am i feeling ? who noe my secret and wad i hab gone through. e pain, e heart breaks. sometimes, i jus need a simple hug. jus bc0s you think tat it is not important, so it does not matter ? sigh. my heart is gonna be dead. lots and lots of things to say in my heart. yet, using words is undescribeable. wad am i to you ? i done my part in salvage e relationship. am i still attitude ? am i still childish ? am i still unreasonable ? yes, i admit, SOMETIMES. but why cant you be e one who are ? why always me ? you always right and i always wrong, tat e logic and fact to you. you nvr reflect wad you did. pushing all e blames to me. hais.

再美的故事，也有结局。就算再舍不得，也没有用。当你已经不知道自己是谁是，当你失去自我是，当你无依无靠是，你的心即将随着时间慢慢死去。千言万语在我心中，开心，愤怒，伤心，我能找谁倾诉？

2009-10-27T20:12:00.002+08:00

yeah, finally got e time to update my blog.

hab been missing school alot. ah gong go in and out e hospital. well, e hospital he was being sent too totally sux like hell. they dun even took care of him. alway say he is fine and ready to discharge but within half a day, he was being sent back again. they jus dun take responsibility. our family is damn du lan wib it. money was being spent and yet nth done. x-ray was done, medicine was given, but when he discharge, e medicine change again. meaning we cant use e first one. sometime, he jus took e medicine once or none at all. it jus waste of money. i hope, they will check properly dhen let him discharge.

well, ytd O lvl english is quite difficult. sigh. wondering how would i score. todae maths is normal. luckily, i got a tutor to help me in last minute revision. thks to him i am able to do better. but i got not enough time to finish it. i'm dead ! grrr. i did not mug and study at all. hopeless man !

well, i am gonna to take a rest. tmr battle again ! jiay0u !

2009-10-02T09:41:00.002+08:00

i'm still sick till todae, coughing and sneezing non-stop. well, one thing happen to my family ytd. my ah gong, was seriosly sick. he was being hospitalized and is dangerous in every minute. he vomitted blood, which is black and even he poo poo oso got blood. i didnt know till my kor told me ytd night. i rmb few days back, he ask me jus to go down buy coke for him, but i was reluctant. iecon was jus located at my hse downstair, yet i was so lazy. n0w, i feel bad. wad can i do to amend ? i dunn0e whether if i buy is correct or not. ytd morning, he told my father to take money from his bank ask him buy ciggeratte dhen e rest gib him. my father ask him why, he said, he wun b able to use it. i left for school, my kor and father left for work, and his alone at home. daddy was back 3 to 4 hrs later, and found him lying on the floor crawling. my father panicked and ask him wad he trying to do. my ah gong say, he wan to go 10th floor and jump down as e pain is too hard for him to endure. so my father called ambulance.

todae, e hospital called say my ah gong in a dangerous state. yet, they haven even take x-ray for him. lots of medical check up will be done. but they say my ah gong stomach bleed and high sugar level, and kidney failure so he have to go on dialysis. but e problem was not solve easily as e doctor say due to e high sugar intake, dialysis for him is very dangerous. till todae, he was still vommit blood. but right n0w, he was feeling better and in a clear state. but sooner, he have to go for several operation. sigh, praying he will get through.

as i was very emotional, i was crying when i went sleep ytd night. many thing flashback in my mind. although sometimes, i think tat my ah gong irritating, dirty or wad ever, but he reali treat me very good. giving me money when he got work. even though, he might did wrong in e past to his children, by when ppl are walking to their end of life, tat does not matter anymore, it jus hoping for him to stay alive. although we staying under one roof, we are close but not tat close. i'm a crybaby, i feel devastated. i'm going to visit him soon. i dun wan any regret to him in my life.

life is fragile, you might not know when is ur turn walking toward to e end of life. treasure everything, before it suddenly disappear in ur life, and tat will b a life-ling regret. and wad you did after, it pointless and it cant make any amendments.

O level is in 24 days time. yet, i'm not prepare. i did not feel e sense of urgency. i dunn0e why. sometimes, i feel like giving up. but i see my ah gong struggling to live in e hospital, it inspire me. my ah gong, use to gamble and cause their children cant go school, and i believe he regretted deep down in his heart, but it jus tat he no courage to say sorry. well, i know, he will encourage me to study hard and score well. i will try to.

2009-09-29T16:16:00.002+08:00

yeah, my blog is rotting. well. recently hab been skipping school. feel no use of going school. i skipped my prelim exams. hopeless right ? no choice. went back school ytd. was rotting whole day. nth to do too. my result was like shit. expected. todae, didnt went school. went to take mc as i was having serious flu and sore throat. doctor gib me 2 days mc. cant speak as i have no voice. so xinku. sight.

i'm going to sleep. byes ~

2009-09-15T23:02:00.005+08:00

yeah ! finally got time to be back in blogging. sigh ! didnt do much in september holiday. i jus thrown my book into my bag and cupboard to rot. i didnt even touch it. i tell myself no matter how oso much study, too bad, temptation of going out is strong. i went out almost everyday. ton every night. cycling, mahjonging and toning i did almost everyday. it was filled wib boredom but luckily, boyf was wib me. went bowling on one of e day wib boyf, yishi and cripple leonard. onli 3 of us playe except for e cripple, spoilt mood. me and yishi ball keep washing e drain. -.-'' so paiseh. our total score not even win our boyf. went acrade to play. boyf catch bear for me. so cute of him. i thought he is lousy. but he manage to catch 2 of it. love him. leonard oso catch one for yishi. dhen cab home and mahjong.

didnt turn out for remedial in e holiday. wondering how am i going to flunked my prelim. well, hard work did pay right ? sometimes, i wonder, am i lucky to score well sometimes or i am born clever ? hahas, i guess i am jus plain lucky. i told myself to work hard and not to disappoint teacher, but i jus simply cant force myself tostudy. grrr, sometime, i jus hate myself. for being a coward of running from studies.

went cycling to bedok jetty. was very tired yet boyf see no help me ask me to jiay0u. grrr. heartless him. come back still bring me walk long way. awww, my muscle aching !

went fishing at pasir ris park one of e day in e holiday. got sun burn without standing in e sun. wtf. it irritates me as my skin started to peel off. grr. a guy who was at there, keep competing wib us see who catch more. -.-'' at least, boyf catch a big one. i was bored at there, stay there more dhen 9 hrs i estimated. alot of patient from me.

ohhs well. a guy pissed me off in e holiday. damn irritating and got no dignity. he took no. from me. dhen we got disgreement in each other and thus, i get him not to contact me anymore. but, he everytime try luck to msg me. saying until like we very close. like to say, i am ____, you forgotten me already. during the holiday, he call my boyf. -.-'' asking him got any job intro. i say even got oso wun intro stranger right. did i say wrong ? dhen i say he very irritating. ask him to grow mature abit. dhen he say tat i am not mature and whether i noe any sec 3 called joan. dhen i replied, i didntsay i am mature, but i not like him no dignity and shameless. i have been kind in my words to him already. but he got over my limit of tolerance. i wanna fcuk care him, dhen he replied tat if i got dignity, i wun gib boyf any attitude. wad's tat gonna to do wib attitude ? i ask him whether he mean joan as joanna and he said my school volley ball girls more chio. dhen i ask him name me who and ask him dun tr to be smart aleck. he didnt reply and my boyf clled him and he switch off phone. so timid still dare wanna scold ppl. he wan commented on my looks, when take no. say so much. so i ask him to urine and take a good look of himself. spopilt my mood, deprived my happy mood. grrr !

many thing have happen. classmates are not getting along well. i dun wanna side who. i dun wanna get involve, it is none of my business. i dunn0e wad misunderstanding we got in between tat you are treating me cold. i dun wanna lose any frenz. i n0e you are beinbg mistreated, i n0e ur suffering, i n0e wad are you grumbling abt, yet, i cannot do anything. sigh. does tat mean i can onli choose one of you both ? i wanna talk to you, wanna console you, but you are n0w like a cold wall, shutting all ur emotions. sometime, you will tell me ur problems, i misses e day, we are close. i pray and hope, tis situation wun last long.

frenz can back stab each other for their jealously. sigh, wad make a strong friendship ? making use of each other ? saying bad things ? back stab ? who dun need a best frenz who understand him/her. tis society, let me see many ppl wib ugly side, yet, i onli can act silly and dumb of it. things who see pretty from outside or to others, have a ugly truth. boyf say i am too naive, believe wad ppl say easily, get bully oso wun say out. yeah, tis is way ppl took advantage of me. i feel hurt in e way they treated me, whos ever know ?

lastly, i feel sorry to mr goh. chemistry paper was quite easy, yet i didnt study at all. well, i admit i am hopeless. wad to do ? things aren't going smoothy. sigh. i am turning my blog into personal recount jus for tis post. i am too emotional.

2009-08-31T17:05:00.001+08:00

saturday went paya lebar there find boyf. after tat, went buy octopus ball and kfc. e night market was damn cramp lahs. so hot too. me and boyf was having bickering. l0lols, we are damn lame. after tat, cab back auntie hse. play mahjong for e whole night. well. i'm energetic. went home in e sunday morning. watch show till 4 plus. finally, was too tired and so my eyes was close and soon, fallen into my dreamland. wake up at 10 plus, call boyf. but he kept ask me to sleep. so i went. i was quite disappointed wib him. sigh.

i overslept todae, so didnt went school. i slept for 18 hrs in total. i not purposely wan skip school. think teacher called me. boyf say until i purposely dun wanna go. fine l0r. having quarrel wib him. sometimes, i reali wonder, did he reali believe me. he jus kept doubting my words. saying i broke my promises. yeah. i did broke it. he nvr break his promises before. well, he onli n0e how to say me but not himself. wad ever. i'm too angry to blog anything now. byes !

2009-08-28T17:14:00.000+08:00

yeah, finally i'm done up with my blog. so fcuk up when doing it. damn blogger. anyway, having english and geography papers on tuesday. e english passage was -.-'' hard plus e combination of e question = flunked ! same with geography. i see no hope in my prelim. most subject sure 100% flunked ! wed maths and physic paper. maths was surprisingly quite easy, but no time to finish. physic paper was e most hard paper i ever did. i didnt even noe 1 questions of it man ! damn it ! everyone was complaining and groaning abt e physic paper. if got zero for it, i would not be surprised.

few days back ago, went paya lebar there derhs night market. n0e wad ? my boyf starting to play with e games down there. childish l0rhs. he's playing gun. e game sux lahs,cheating ppl money we need to shoot EXACTLY at the middle, cannot touch e boarder. dhen eat italian ice cream, i guess ? you n0e that kind of sticky ice cream that stick onto the cone ? it only $2, me and boyf thought he will do some tricks, but none of it being displayed. disappointed.

went 'JIA TOU' ytd with boyf. e food was quite nice lahs. boyf wanna buy e martell cordon blue small one with metals bar at 2 sides. it's very chio lahs. he shout $1000 but when eperson going say until e third times, ppl shout price again. $1200. so we let them. boyf went toilet, and another big martell with metals bar was being sold by $1088. it very cheap l0rhs. boyf was regretted of going to toilet that time. hahaas. no choice, we got to buy something, to protect and bless us for things to go smoothly. so in e end, we buy a martell + rice for $500. boyf jus shout out $500 whe e price only being shout till $200 plus ? dhen he keep complaining. hahaas, serve him right ! dh cab back auntie hse mahjong. todae no exam = no school = holiday ! but was doing blog whole day.

guys, pls motivate me to study. i keep slacking. sigh.

well, i'm tired, going take a nap and meet boyf for dinner.

2009-08-24T15:25:00.000+08:00

yeah, i am here to clear all spider web hanging ard my blog. didnt post for such a long time. partly bc0s of i am watching drama, lazy, not at home, and do bit of revision.

last thursday having my english oral. well, i was scared. i was e first. but e oral quite easy, jus tat i got too nervous and forgetting things i wanna say. but overall, i got confidence i will pass it ! well, i also gotten back my O lvl chinese. sigh. disappointment. well, cant blame anyone. who ask me before e exams still go out ton till falling asleep during it. get B3 for it. well, going retake. i fcuking hate it l0rhs. my teacher compare my result with one got C5 one. irritating. say i didnt go for intensive sop result so LOUSY ! wtf. get B3 still lousy. ass. she still tell mewaste my time, fcuk l0rhs. nvm, heart found a console by other teachers. i am persistance and determined to do well.

prelim start todae. and i going flunked my SS for sure. i leave my essay question out as i didnt bring my file home. sian ! tmr geography, gib up ! english was hard too. stressed out. but yet, i am still like jelly fish. i still alot everday. 15 hrs plus of sleep or more. sigh ! e more i sleep, e tired i am. wondering how am i going to do for my prelim.

and, i miss my sistax lots. they are my pillar of strength sometimes without i realising it. yeahs, i miss e laughter they brought me. i miss e past. i miss e funny act of huiying and yishi. sigh ! i promised, i will make time to go out.

well, qad and me was struggling. let's work hard. i swear, i will do my best and reali study chem and f&n as these two subject teacher are very nice and encouraging to me.

2009-08-07T18:42:00.000+08:00

prelim gonna coming, yet, i'm still slacking. wad ever, i am simply hopeless. sigh ! tis whole week, nvr go school for 4 days, except wed. -.-'' bc0s i am not feeling well in the first 2 days. thur nvr go bc0s i overslept. todae didnt go bc0s waste of time to me. watching concert and parade.

who dun wanna study well ? it need hard work and persistance. but i am jus lacking of all those. was staying at home every day to rot. sigh ! gonna pull myself up ! no mood to blog, going out soon.

2009-08-01T08:17:00.001+08:00

well, went prawning wib boyf on tuesday night. i onli can say, now, ECP prawning was suck. prawn so little. therefore, we broke a record of onli fish up 4 prawns in 2 hrs. clap clap* was challenging wib him see who fish up more, in e end, non party won. after cab home.

wed, stay back to do coursework, but left earlier. no mood to do, plus saw a sight of ppl i dun like. yucks ! well, was msging him alot. he my best frenz ever in smsing. he is caring. AND QAD HELP ME IN MY MISCROSOFT WORD ! thks her mans !

thursday, stay back for coursework again. well, i stay till 6 plus. till school close. walked home. on my way home, a ITE guy come took no. from me. i say dun wan. i thought tis reject would drove im off and gib up. but he still follow me ! wtf ? he follow me till i reach my block downstair, left me wib no choice but to gib him. dhen he msg me. when i didnt reply him like 10 minutes, he would keep sending me msges. saw yishi when we go eat, while chatted awhile wib her. miss her alot. while, ytd go ah siang's hse, he still msg me. dhen i didnt reply, he called at ard 12 plus when i wib my boyf. resulted quarrel between me and him. sorry dear, i lied somehow, but i reali dunn0e who called. it is not called from him, but is other person. sorry to him, being misunderstood by my boyf, hope everything peace.

msg boyf in e morning. still in cold war. i feel fcuking uncomfortable. dhen e guy still msg me. i was so fcuk up. i told QAD abt everything. so she say she will reply for me. you n0e wad, i would not result to tis if i was reali pissed off. he ask untill so detail. my life, my love, my sex life, everything ! like as if, he was my mummy or daddy. so QAD jus send him a msg say tat 'i found you irritating' yet he still reply saying ' i ask you questions you find me irritating? sorry'. wahs, me and QAD say he will power and determination so strong. dhen we reply say 'can you stop msging me' and he still reply. till i'm reali pissed off i say, i'm attached. dhen he change view of me. saying wad i'm indecent all tat. does alot of ex mean e girl is indecent ? crap right ? i was so angry as i felt humilated. wtf l0rhs, how can he comment on me. he say, a leopard wun change its spot. nb, i'm not tat kind of girl seriously l0rhs, guy is alway guy, onli say good when n0e ppl dun hab boyf. forget it. i think, i hab vent my anger on him too, cos he was e reason why me and boyf quarrel. i regret of giving him my no. i should perserve. nvm, i learned my lesson. i sleep till midnight. woken up by boyf msg.

went down find him. c0s, i reali dun wanna gib up. saw him, dunn0e wad to say, jus hugged him and cried. a hug is more dhen millons of words said. dhen we are fine lia0s. i leaned my mistake from tis.

ohhs well, being chased out of class bc0s i didnt do my maths corrections. nvm, i see no point doing tat. teacher nowaday are biased. and looked ppl down. all teacher looked down on our class. i hate it. despise us ? and we will despise those teachers ! onli likes good students ? go ahead and leave us alone dhen. fcuk it. i thought teachers must be fair and square ? wad ever, i'm gonna work hard, dun wanna being despise. QAD ! let's work hard. and are ur AUGUST better ?! my august start well by being fine wib boyf lia0s, hope something good happen to you too ! love !

dear, i dun wanna lose you, i wun do things tat she does before, trust me, trust e love wib hab. gonna 1 yrs lia0s, and i'm still counting.

2009-07-23T15:44:00.002+08:00

ytd, we hab our O lvl MT listening. after school, went SP buy SUBWAY ! yummy. i was very nice. dhen headed back to school for exams. well, e listening was easy but tricky ! grrr. answer very close. guess, i must hab e preparation to retake my chinese.

after tat, went find boyf. dhen went geylang et dian xin. dear still say he wun b full, but in e end, after he eat the chicken glutinous rice, he was full ! after tat, back home sleep.

todae, i run my 2.4km. well, i pass it ! very tired l0rhs. i run non-stop. at first, ms lau giving me discount to run lesser, in e end, she made me run full 2.4 as she was surprised tat i could do it during 14 minutes plus so she intended to make me run all. my timing was 15.36:89. so fcuking happy lahs. but was physically very tired now. after school, ask sze yee help me da bao subway. and i stay for my mock exams.

i finally found e motivation, but i still dunn0e how to force myself. ms lau pushed me to work hard and run without stopping. well, thks her for tat. tat make me realise wad are motivation. i must study ! i must do well !

i'm going off to sleep, not bc0s i'm lazy, but my energy was drained out.

2009-07-21T14:32:00.002+08:00

at tis point in time. i should b in school. but why i at home ? frankly speaking, morning i wake up, but heart is struggling whether wan to attend school anot. party bc0s i hab a big quarrel wib boyf.but tat wasnt e main reason. e main reason is i dunn0e wad to wear to school. well, our classmates hab plan to wear something uniform for all. yeah, white top plus vest plus black jeans. i wish to b unique not to wear according to their taste or something. but i dun wanna b e odd one out.

i'm sad todae i didnt attend school. i regret, but wad can i do ? todae was having experiment for my f&n, taking graduation photo. ohhs, i screw it in my own minds. i dunn0e, i think its reali a pity. sigh. huang peishan is hopeless lia0s.

wanna do coursework, but do 15minutes, jiu dun feel like doing. deadline reaching, prelim coming, O lvl oso coming soon. will i hab e time to finish revising ? i'm doomed. god dun help those who dun help themselves right ? wad can i expect for my result to b ? lousy ? or super duper lousy ? sigh. i reali dunnnoe wad i wan.

i hope tis is e last time, ily.

2009-07-18T09:00:00.002+08:00

back from my breakfast ! whoots, morning derhs breeze is so REFRESHING ! hahaas. well, ytd night actually wanna go watch movie. but onli harry potter got later time. so went mustafa walk walk wib boyf. bought sweet and chocolate. dhen back ah seng hse to play awhile mahjong dhen went home.

sad thing happen to my dearest son. his grandmotherpass away. he should b sad, as i guess, he grandmother dote on him lots. cheer up my dear. mummy will b there for you. bdae reaching soon. let's meet up. dun let tis affect ur exams. JIAYOU !

i now so duper energetic. feel like going jogging . first time got tis feel. hahaas. now, i guess, i got to stick my butt on e chair and do parts of my coursework. deadline ending. i cant disappoint them again. i swear. i'll TRY to work hard.

2009-07-17T14:46:00.002+08:00

school was so sians. sometimes, need to stay back for mock exams. sigh. ytd run 15 minutes non-stop for PE. but i dun feel tired. oso dunn0e why liddat. but was mentally tired after tat. after e mock went buble tea shop wib sze yee and bus home. well, next tuesday is MSS day. meaning can wear home clothes to school. our class decide on michael jackson as our theme. but i dun hab black vest, neither i hab long white tee. -.-'' sound silly to wear long white shirt and jeans in tis kind of weather we living now ? humphs.

todae, was planning abt our class outing. we planned on next sat. but unfortunately, no pit was available. so we hab to change it either to friday or sunday. sian ! hopefully e class outing faster come. i wanna BBQ !!!

2009-07-09T15:25:00.004+08:00

last sat, went geylang eat dim sum. whoots so nice. when e food cames, we were all sntaching for it, except jiemin and me. shall i say tat we are retard. of c0s not. c0s my boyf took for me. hahaas. poor jiemin. hand still so short somemore. hohoho. but in e end. i took for her. when e waitress put down e food, we jiu snatch, like hungry ghost6 and ppl are laughing at us. well i dun mind, as we re having fun. after tat went buy beer. ohhs ya, when we were going off, we saw ang moh ! sooo fcuking handsome man ! me and yishin was like he was caughting all our attention. decided to went prawning but last minutes cancel and play mahjong instead. dhen went leonard hse sleep.

ytd, was kor kor bdae. crystal was sweet by baking him a cheese cake. well, it wasnt my taste, but it was not badly done afterall. sincere tat counts right ? meet up wib usuals. ohhs my god. i reali miss them much. we ent out to eat. was chit chatting and having fun. my kor so bad. see crystal take cake come, jiu run away from it. -.-'' dhehn mahjong and home sweet home.

my time table change again. -.-'' it reali sux now. monday and tuesday release late, while wed, thur and fri release early. whoots, so happy, my weight now onli 46.6kg. i grown thinner ! me already skeleton lia0s. i wanna grow fat. and, i nvr intend or purposely dun eat to have diet.

todae, a frenz of my going navy lia0s. hahaas, BOTAK, wish him all e best arhs. well, recently, i'm struck between my good frenz. well, i didnt n0e sometime, she can be so fcuk, stealing ppl things. sigh. sometimes, my frenz oso told me tat she will make use of ppl. sometimes i feel like i'm stupid of letting others making use of me. e feeling sux. humphs, i oso dun mind much. forgive and forget make life easier.

sigh, i did a wrong things todae. i skipped my mock exams. partly bc0s i'm drained out totally for running 10 mins non stop. laura lau is mad ! grrr. no offence. i haven been running for soo long. suddenly run, i feel like collapse down. head now very giddy and pain. sigh. she still say next week run 15 mins non-stop. how can i do tis ? she say we success bc0s our of our mind set. as well as our physical right ? -.-'' i think tmr i will kana scold like hell.

my form teacher has been treating me good. she nvr probe so much abt our things. but i n0e she cares. i got a guilty feeling to some teachers they're so good, but simply, i dun help myself. i'm jus plain lazy. i wish to score well, but no motivation to work hard or study. wad shall i do ? i dun wan let everybody who hold hopes for me to b disappointed.

boyf and me is alright now. my teacher told us to put relationship aside. but i think, sometimes my relationship did affect me afterall. but, i guess, boyf is understanding and try to bear of not quarreling.

well, stop here. my head very pain. gonna hab a nap.

2009-07-04T12:05:00.002+08:00

well, finally got e time and not lazy to update. i see spider web hanging round my blog. hmm. i already forgot wad i hab past through. rougly. holiday end lia0s. was back to school. whoots. i miss my frenz. and i onli saw my daddy on friday, reali miss her lots mans ! i miss school on monday, bc0s ioverslept. previous tat night, some argument hab happen.

i realise, there are alot for me to catch up. my homework, my coursework. but luckily, i did some of it lers. so there arent much for me to do. i hab my O lvl MT oral ytd. well, i was too nervous and my mind is in a blank. ohhs, shit. i guess i did badly, but i must say, i reali did try my best. i hope to score well in my O. but simply, i lacking e rason to study. i dunn0e why.

recently, my kor was caught in a trouble. grrr.feel like killing tat guy lahs, he so .... dunn0e wad to say lahs. he spent alot when going out. sigh. dunn0e when will he turn clever toward dealing wib girls. -.-''

later night, gonna eat dian xin ! whoots, my shrimp wrap ! after tat. dunn0e wanna go where. some dun wanna ton. but i feel like going fish prawn. O lvl is reaching in 100 plus day time. yet, i'm jus playing a fool. i dun think i derserve to score well. but i promise. i will try my best to focus all my attention in study dhen playing. i think. i should stop work or work very little.

i'm feeling abit tired now. gonna sleep for energy for tonight ! let's party !

2009-06-17T09:31:00.011+08:00

whoots, long time didnt blog properly lia0s. firstly was busy wib work, second is lazy. hahaas. 2 more weeks to school reopen. mock exams, prelim O lvl coming. sigh. coursework deadline is reaching too. i must b motivated !!

recently, was quarreling over small little bit thing wib boyf. sigh, you nvr n0e how much i love you. times and times, i wish to let go, but i cant, reali i cant. since e day, i cry so bitterly for wad you hab done, you hab say, as you hab threaten me. i wan to go, but i cant lie to myself say i can let you go. i wish all things will gone, and we will b fine.

almost every day went home late. went to pei boyf help uncle, playing mahjong, hab been neglecting my school work. ah ha, gonna work very hard to get good result.

went out on last sunday wib my 3 BESTIES. know wad, they're simply irreplacable. i love them lots. i know i've been neglecting them sometimes, long time didnt went out tgt lia0s. i felt so happy, well. got someone say ask us dun b late, but she was e one who late. l0lols. after tat went marina, intention of catching movie, but after some little dicussion, we decided go play L4D instead. so went NEW YORK NEW YORK eat. wan eat yuki yaki derhs, but it got time limit, so we dun wan. NYNY is nice, but onli e mussels. no offence. headed to bugis, pei yishi buy her things, dhen she and jiemin go look for frenz, and me and huiying went shisha to wait for them. me and huiying was falling asleep as we are very tired and we are in a comfortable place. so yishi and jiemin chose to shisha coke plus mint. e smoke was unpleasent to me. somehow, e waiter take e whole plastic wib e cake inside come out. l0lols. spoilt yishi derhs plan. but i was very surprised, lots of words i wanted to say, but is too mushy to say out. i reali grateful to them, i reali love them and thks them for everything. after tat, jiemin wan go find her frenz so didnt went for L4D. went to bus stop, our bus 63 is gone, but huiying and yishi bus come shortly, they are so happy tat our bus is gone but their bus reach early dhen us. luckily, our bus come right after them again. whoots. chatted on bus wib jiemin. long time didnt catch up lia0s. after tat, boyf come bus stop meet me, dhen rode me go eat and after tat went ubi help uncle. dhen went leonard hse slept.

2009-06-05T09:07:00.003+08:00

well, didnt turn up for remedial. think gonna scold. partly bc0s i'm working. sigh. needed to rush up coursework soon. gonna pass up by end of next week. i MAKE SURE i pass up on time. if not, i will keep on dragging. O lvl coming. mock exams, prelim. stressed up. sigh. i wanna relax !!

haven slep e whole day, unexpectly, later i still hab to go work. tired. wondering will i fall asleep ? c0s i working at other places from leonard. alone. sigh. hate e feeling. but no chocie. ppl hab to b independent one day right ? i gonna catch some nap.

well, i didnt slept e whole day, scared you nvr wake up. in e end ? sigh. i dun wanna say anymore. everything you right, i was in a wrong. i'm very tired. why he jus dun wan understand and admit tat he was in a wrong too ? mayb i care and concern him in a worng way. forget it. he alway hab sometime to rebut my quarrel, my words. i cant win against his mouth. but seriously, i'm already tired. gib me a break will you ?

2009-06-03T06:33:00.002+08:00

yeah, i think i did badly for my O lvl MT. e compo questions was kinda hard to write. but paper 2 is easier. think i will score b4 ? hopefully i can get A. but inpossible ? well, its over. no point thinking abt it.

things are happening everyday. all bad for me. i'm stressed up !

2009-06-01T03:34:00.003+08:00

i here blogging again. jus now went search boyf's buddha plate for him. i feel so guilty. if it not bc0s of him, not bc0s i provoked my kor, so they fight. he wun lose it. wad shall i do ? there nth i can repay him, there nth to amend for him. i feel like dying. buying a new one for him not gonna solve e problems. e plate was wib him for 15 yrs. i so lose. nth i do seem right. i'm a failure. i felt so regret. i feel so indebted to him. i dun wanna see him sad. but wad shall i do ? where can i gonna find it back for him ? sigh. i'm sorry my dear. i didnt expect you to forgib me tis time. i hab make a big mistake, tat will nvr b amend unless found e plate back. god, help me pls.

2009-06-01T00:00:00.003+08:00

long time since i last update a proper post. well, i hab been skipping school for whole of one week. intensive MT is not for me. sigh. i feel guilty toward my daddy. she must be bored without me chatting wib her. ohhs well, not i wan skip, sometimes is purely i didnt wake up. i tends to sleep alot. sometimes, i jus dunn0e why,. e temptation of not going school was overwhelming. i force myself to and fro. but, simply not against e good and nice temptation tat i can get some rest.

alot of things not done, alot of matter happening. god, i'm breaking down.

ppl, advise not to assume things by ur confidence. it led to greater disappointment. same as e case i'm facing now. ppl assume me, i assume things. ppl does change. not everyone will be e same prefect person as wad ur mind think or imagine. it time for me to grow up. i hab been in such pain for quite a long time. i didnt say, c0s i reali dunn0e wad to do. i'm helpless. i'm jus a small little tiny girl. i'm emotional. i likes to cry. tat all wad i will do when facing problems. i didnt hab e courage to face it. dun care wad ppl think is wad i will say. i like to run away from e reality. but it does not help. in fact, making things even worst. wad to do. i'm oso very hurt down my heart, who ever know my pain ? mayb i'm selfish, i think onli for myself, but wad can i do ? stuck in between, being threaten all tat ? sometimes i hab enough. wish i got more courage to suicide.

boyf and i was having hard time. every things are seems against us. i dunn0e. his temper was reali bad. but he reali very good to me. i'm sad bc0s he is streesed. i'm happy bc0s his smile. i hope every crsis will get over soon. boyf oso tell me and correct me from my wrongs doing. but my stubborness led to argue. c0s i will fight saying i was not in a wrong. i wun tell ppl how i feel. c0s, i think, hpw i feel does not matter. to me, wad matter most is my loved ones feel. i can suffer in silent. i can cry alone. as long as they are no problems create. who know my pain ? different ppl got different stands, tat why, me and boyf often quarrel bc0s of different views. well, i dun blame him. i noe i was over board sometimes, neglecting his feeling. i jus need time to get things right.

todae, jus bc0s small little thing,causing many trouble. jus bc0s i took my kor key out. dhen my kor kor not at home. so my kor didnt hab key to go out. dhen he called my kor kor. asking either one of us to go back get him e keys. but none of us did, but to hang his call and ignore his calls. he went mad ? usinh hammer to break e lock. he manage to broke it. and went my frenz hse find us. well. he angry and throw e lock, and hit until crystal leg. poor things. she so innocent. dhen we go out talk. my kor shout at me, so i reply him by shouting too. dhen he ask me called my kor kor. i say i not his dog. so in e end, he beat me. boyf see till angry, fight wib my kor. fortunately, still manage to stop them. went downstair talk, bc0s my frenz neighbour KPO ! downstair, kor kor and kor quarrel and fight again. wth. but they stop it. kor ko was angry bc0s crystal, e victim was his girlf. so my kor say, i stand here let you throw e lock at me. dots. but kor kor say no, but instead wanted him to apologise to crystal. everything ends. sigh. small thiongs create big trouble. i hope, tis kind of incident would not happen again.

after e incident, boyf talk to me. telling me next time how could i solve e matters. but kana scold by me. i n0e he meant well. but i jus dunn0e why i'm liddat. sigh.

let put aside those unhappy things. later got O lvl MT paper. well. i hope i'm prepared for it. GOOD LUCK ! my bdae oso reaching soon !

2009-05-21T00:10:00.002+08:00

long time didnt update blog. because i'm lazy, because i got nth to blog. tmr intensive Mt start. sigh ! how am i going to survive HER teaching ?! boring. zzz. i can sleep. i nvr done her homework. wondering will i be scolded. well, i got to buck up. O level MT is in june.

i didnt attend school recenly often, c0s i overslept. too much thing bothering my minds. i wish i got a support, but sometimes, ppl closer to me, does not gib me any support. well, not evrything can be shared and talk out to ppl. i suffering down in my heart. i feel helpless. i feel i cannot be cured. wad am i supposed to do ?! thks qad and sze yee, i can tell you my stuff and you both will be there for me always. you both alway keep me from falling apart. i loved you both !!

my exams result are LOUSY. tat e words i can describe it. but i wun blame anyone only myself. i swear, i didnt study at all. c0s i having a lots of problems during tat periods. i dunn0e how to handle streesed. i am very emotional. tat wad i am. i got no courage, i rely on ppl for support.

having quarreling almost everyday recently. he jus dun understand wad i wan, how i feel. but i hope things are slowly going back on right tracks. i feel very hard to digest some information. i have been rushing out works. but i got no MOTIVATION ! NO MOTIVATION AT ALL ! sigh !

i'm going back home soon, if not tmr overslept again. BUCK UP !!

2009-05-04T18:35:00.003+08:00

wee ! having exams now. nvr study at all. gib up on mid yrs ! reali no motivation at all. tis weekend sux arhs, wan go out dhen rain. sigh ! O lvl chinese pape coming soon. hope i can do well. paper are not hard actually, as long as you study, but i simply no mood.

i haven even finish my coursework tat needed to pass up 2 weeks ago. gonna finish it tmr. i'm so sleepy. tmr maths paper and physic. die for sure ! sigh ! my result sure very very lousy.

well, i go do my thing lia0s.

2009-04-25T23:37:00.003+08:00

i'm so deeply disppointed. dun say something out if you cant do. i'm not feeling well, yet you not here. i'm feeling weak, i need some support. but you didnt even realise. i see you talk wib them till so happy, like eager to go, how can i b so selfish asking you to pei me. dhen you go round telling ppl tat i dun wanna go, dhen if you go, i'll angry or wad. dhen it turn to my fault. dhen other ppl think my childish temper come out again.

you keep saying if wan you dun go dhen pei me. you say till so much, in e end still go. sigh, how i wish you'll stay wib me. but you cant understand my heart. sigh, no mood to say so much.

can you understand how i feel ?!

2009-04-24T09:39:00.002+08:00

April mth is like so sux. jus everything was turn out to b better, something happen again. sigh ! i'm tired. no matter in school or in wad ever. i need so support. i'm feeling weak. exams are ard e corner ! jus next week ! yet, i didnt even worry or do anything abt it. lord, are you playing a game on us ?! sigh ! coursework needa pass up soon. i didnt even do anything. for e past 4 mth, i've been jus slacking.

wad am i supposed to do when my heart so pain ?! i can seat alone, staring into space and cry, jus better i sense heart painn, like something gonna happen or someone important is leaving me. i hate e feeling. i've tried to b strong, but simply i cant do it. i'm not strong, huang peishan is weak, i must admit tat. she like jus cant do anything right. keep giving ppl trouble.

sigh, wad am i going to do ?!

2009-04-19T13:12:00.003+08:00

sigh, was bored at home. i wanna a handphone. ): grrrr. fcuk up.

tmr is monday, wondering wad will happening. humphs. sometimes, ppl can b such a LOSER ! i simply dun understand why. isit fun to act as many ppl to post those words, trying to make us scared ?! ohhs no, aren't they childish ?!

i'm so tired. gonna psycho mummy buy phone for me.

2009-04-16T14:23:00.002+08:00

sigh ! i dunn0e why ppl dare talk behind e com but not face to face. well, its seem tat they're childish too. firstly, babyJ. i wonder how old you're still baby ?! sound so er xin ! so wad nobody detest you outside or in school ?! do you n0e wad reali ppl think ?! you can see through their heart ?! sigh ! i pity you lahs. stop being childish and go back drink ur mother's milk. and dun try to make urself POPULAR by asking us to tag ur BLOG OR WAD EVER ! since you say until like you popular. and you still in school, mean you smaller dhen us, dhen better respect ur JIE JIE ! understand xiao mei mei ?! still need me to teach you basic courtesy ?! omqqs, i dun mind teaching you for free.

KATH ! omqqs, if i'm childish you too ! dun act one mature. wad you dun wan confront us bc0s angela say see first. wan come lahs, dun talk so much behind com. is you all wanna find trouble dhen jiu come down chup lao. dog. bitch. onli n0e use sms say ppl DOG, BITCH, PIG or wad ever. it prove to us tat you're inmature. somemore. STILL LIKE TO HAHAAS. -.-'' dun say we dun dare go down yishun there lahs, dhen you dare come down chup lao lahs. why ?! scared arhs ?! ' you're stupid like a pig, bark like a dog, small like an ant and guts like a rat' tis sentence are you referring to urself ?! ohhs pls, she in class so damn quiet lahs. if she not happy wib us, ask her confronted us dhen. spamming make you look so childish. are you saying urself very MATURED by all ur acts n0w ?! think you should go reflect on urself lahs. dun act one ah lian can. at least my sistax not ah lian, oso no need act can b a real ah lian lia0s. right yishi ?! hahaas.

wad ever, why ppl attitude should blame their parent ?! pls lahs, parent gib you a life, but you chose ur own path leis. dun b so CHILDISH by pushing all blame to parent, they didnt owe you anything BITCH ! well, i guess, you're jus no manner. even respect elderly oso dunn0e. dun hab ur parent oso dun hab you l0rhs. dunn0e how to b grateful, i teach you lahs. silly & stupid bitch.

thks sze yee ! miss you so much. i'm so lonely in school without you sitting by my side mans ! QAD, seriously, i feel waste of time talking or aruging wib them, they dun dare confront us. and, SHE say she dun wan confront us bc0s we're her frenz, but now we're not, she oso dun dare. dun dare jiu mai say till soooo big lahs. sigh ! is she alway tag along wib us. QAD is asking me to pei her, not you. so dun BHB alright ?! wan jiu confront us, we're waiting. dun dare jiu keep ur mouth SHUT. hais, did QAD ever pleaded you ?! i think you do it willingly. so dun blame her or wad. aiy0, dun say we dun dare talk infront you, you dare mehs ?! keep say you're borned to b like tis. BULLSHIT ! ur mother so poor thing lahs. pity her for having such a childish minded daughter who dun apperciate her.

guys, do you n0e ppl go cghurch for true wordshipping ?! but somehow, someone go there see handsome guys. -.-'' such an insult. and she say ' buddism SUX ! ' see how mean she can. and say abt god ?!

wan jiu come down chup lao. dun wan dhen keep ur bloody mouth shut !

2009-04-12T21:32:00.003+08:00

sigh ! my phone lost ! wtf ! its okay. didnt went remedial on sat. QAD didnt went too. think e tutor gonna b mad ?! well, recently didnt went home.

i didnt n0e ppl can b sooooo childish. say till she very noble. ca you imagine when someone didnt do anything, dhen other party say ur attitude sux ?! tat sound stupid right ?! hais, let see wad we can do when she update more abt her blog ? wad ever shit. not gonna gib it a damn. i dunn0e girl can b so FCUK too ! so ashamed of her being a girl. as i say, thing made ppl grow up. i dun blame her, think QAD too.

anyway, as long as she dun push her luck too far, i'm alright. GUYS ! when being frenz of someone, pls EYES OPEN BIG BIG ! dun made those trouble marker who think he/she was very big. such a frenz can b a betrayer. she think she's popular outside, but NOT IN SCHOOL ! tat wad i can confirmed ! hahaas, wad ever, i feeling childish and sians of posting all tis. wad come will come, let wait and see and eat popcorn !

2009-04-09T14:40:00.002+08:00

whoots, gonna hab a short holiday. well, wasnt reali happy in school. c0s my QAD are being said by nth. i was fcuking dulan alright. why ppl attitude say ppl attitude them ? they are jus BHB ! wad ever. n0w, i felt such a shame of agruing and writing in blog to say abt her. it made me childish too right ? i jus wanna say out to show how unreasonable she is. but no hard feeling.

she a girl, wib attitude problem vey SERIOUS ! she likes to OI ppl. wtf. pls respect ppl lahs. ppl got name leis. when ppl say her, she will say YOU WHERE NOT HAPPY ?! well, tis is too much. no respect to me, and i shall treat you wib no respect. ur whole body not happy dhen find GUY TO ENTERTAIN you. we're not ur entertainment or a thing you can vent anger on. pls larhs, wad you gib us face not to confront us bc0s we are ur frenz ? izzit you dun dare ? dun sound till so WEI DA ! i wanna PUKE ! if reali very childish of you, pls, grow up ! at least we are older dhen you, wait till you older dhen us dhen call us OI lahs, but you got to wait for ur next life.

eveyone got their own limit, dun push it too far ! i cant stand e way you say and does. i sound so IRRITATING in class too. didnt you notice tat ?! well, think you still immature to think for others. as being slightly older and more mature dhen you, we SHALL FORGIVE YOU. lastly, where not happy jiu confront. dun write in blog. it seem silly arguing to urself. if you dun dare to confront, dhen jolly well not to blog anything. we're not scare of ur confront. pls dun say we're ur frenz. if you continue to say abt all tis CRAP ! well, no one will sid wib you. and dun anyhow spread rumours which it not true. keep ur mouth small, so it wun cause any trouble.

well, i'm not going bc0s of tis thing spoilt my mood. not worth it. anyway, tat day pratical exams was fine. but e pineapple gultinous rice was like -.-'' tasteless. c0s got e blender smell too. anyway, i'm happy abt my muffins. hohohoho ! i'm going see anime. going out at night !

2009-04-03T09:49:00.003+08:00

counting down from April, there half a years more to O. yet, i still didnt hab any motivation. but at least, i'm studying better dhen last time. its an improvement. well, school was alright. but i miss my boyf deeply. you n0e, my class are lame on April fool day. they play a prank on teacher using lizard. are they childish ?! humphs. well, no comment on tat. they enjoy doing tat.

sigh, was being nag to go CCA. but i reali didnt wanna go. some of them didnt understand wad i hab gone through. and i strongly believe tat some childish and immature ppl are talking bad abt me behind my back. mayb saying tat, aiya, she's liddat one. wad ever. but i jus wanna say if you dunn0e wad going on, dhen betteer shut up ur mouth. and learn to b mature and understand ppl in their shoes. ppl grow where they overcome so problems. but some ppl are jus too fortunate. well, i would not explain to them so much. they jus wounld not listen and still continue gossip.

another matter was money see ppl heart. some ppl tag along wib ppl when they hab money, and will treat you tis and tat. when you stop doing tat, they leave you for another group. sigh ! no point having such a frenz. true frenz are wib you when you need help in anything, when you sad to gib you a warmth hug. not all ppl are able to do tat. to me, onli one hab done tat. tat's yishi ! she's my very good sistax. when i quarrel wib family, she's there for me. helping in wad ever way she could. i'm disappointed for some of my frenz. they jus dun understand. tell them so much, oso no use. they simply jus CHANGE ! money does change ppl heart and mind. money is important, if not ppl will jus look down on you.

some ppl think tat they got jus more money dhen ppl, jus can b arrogant. well, fcuk off from my life. simply him. i DESTEST him. if he got e authority to made me leave school, go ahead larhs. dun say something behind my bad. you think you very big ?! well, like SHIT to me. n0e why ppl dun call you when we go out ?! c0s ur attitude sux. reflect on urself larhs. proud, arrogant, look down on ppl was jus wad you do.

ppl is gossiping everywhere, we cant stop it. well, n0w i n0e, gossip too much are jus proving tat they're immature.

heh, shall not make all tis spoilt my mood, as i going meet boyf todae. so long didnt meet him. i miss my frenz lot too ! FISH PRAWN !!! WOOHOO !! (:

2009-03-31T09:37:00.000+08:00

well, long time didnt able to post. as i was lazy. and i'm not at home most of e time. i was sick and tired of my hypocrite family. during my one week holiday, i thks my frenz for being there wib me. they spent quite alot money as they wanna cheer me up by taking me go fish prawns. well, e price was quite reasonable. it was enjoyable too ! whoots. i wan thanks my boyf lot. he is e one supporting me all e long. n0w, its a new start and i hope everything go well for us. i gonna b bored. as boyf working lia0s. sigh.

i've done alot of wrong thing. and i felt sorry for last mintues drop out of SYF. but i was reali in no mood. well, see laura lau. she ask me go. but i n0e, deep down in my heart. i reali didnt wanna go. was feeling unwell tis few days. feel headache, stomach pain, vomitting. tis 2 weeks, i hab lost weight, my appetite was not good. sometimes 2 days onli eat 1 meal, and not a complete meal.

n0w, i gonna work hard for my O ! jiay0u ! i can do it. i g0ing search my recipes for my pratical exams.

2009-03-14T22:12:00.003+08:00

14th march

today was a very unlucky day. quarrel wib parent till very fierce. well, they dun understand me. they are SIMPLY MONEY FACE ! simply UNREASONABLE ! fcuk it. i wonder how i hab tat kind of parent. i n0e, my mummy was tiring and hurt by me, i feel sorry for her. but i was too angry dhen. sigh. i dunn0e how am i going to slove all tis conflict wib my family. i didnt wanna go home again. it dun feel like a home. i hate e life i'm having n0w. i dunn0e why i become so hot temper. i reali dun understand, h0w will a parent angry till say they wun treat you as a daughter ?! i almost jump. luckily for my frenz out there for me. i'm tired and sick of my life. dear god, izzit it too much for me to bear ?! help me. i hate going home. i hate my family. my kor ! he not a good kor anymore, he jus a fcuker. no point treating him as my beloved. he change. till no one like him. but he didnt realise. temper so bad, so arrogant. ohhs pls, fcuk off wib tis type of attitude. all e attitude and character is i learn from you all one. so, indirectly is YOUR FAULT ! nvm, i gib up hope on my family. i'm simply too tired. and i'm not going to blog out our conservation, our quarrel betwwen me, my parent and kor as i'm too hurt by them. huang peishan gonna b dead. i wanna move out. i will find part time job, and move out once my income was stable. i dun mind being tired now. but i reali reali hate my home.

13th march

friday night 13. wondering how unlucky will b. morning, forget bring tis and tat to school, forget do alot home work. even my maths test WAS HARD ! think i', gonna FLUNKED it again. skip dance as i reali stress out. i reali dunn0e wad to relieve myself. went boyf hse stay.

11th march

skip school as i was sick. recently, i jus simply hab no mood. think ms wong gonna crazy

9th march

having compre mid yrs exams. passage quite okay. onli some question are tricky. hope i did well. after tat, went dance. dhen meet boyf go eat

after coming back from chalet. slept till night, was very tired.

2009-03-06T15:32:00.005+08:00

6th march

went school. after tat dragon boat. it a WASTE OF TIME ! sun oso very hot ! sigh ! now currently blogging at chalet. gonna hab fun ! currently using yishi lap top to take pic.

5th march

HAPPI BDAE TO HUANG WEI LONG ! my beloved kor. 21 yrs old lia0s

didnt went school todae, overslept. or mayb no lessons and sians of school. bf scold me. angry me. c0s i broke my promise. sorry. went ah wee hse look for him after some conflict. dhen went nutc dhen yishi hse for mahjonging. dear was angry dunn0e for wad. sigh. at night almost say till break. i'm sorry dear. i didnt wanna lose you. i promise to keep my promise. i swear.

4th march

didnt went school todae. over night at bf hse. morning went ah siang hse play mahjong. todae is his bdae. they play mahjong. at night, his mum brought alot food. but me and bf went down eat, as it was very strange. dhen went back help him cut cake. after tat, continue mahjong.

3rd march

went school for intensive lessons ! sians ! sians !

2nd march

HAPPI BDAE TO YISHI ! she's old lia0s ! 17 ! hahahas, i still sweet 16

went school todae, having civil district trail. so sian ! walk so long. but at least, first time other dhen class photo, we took tgt. tis is e last yrs, yet we not bonding like one.

after trail, went dance. tired of rolling !! roll roll roll, wanna vomit lia0s !

2009-02-26T15:09:00.002+08:00

todae was rotting in school. ohhs well, i 4 plus jus sleep. but i dun feel tired at all ! so surprise. i'm lazy to update as you all n0e. huang peishan is e most lazy

sigh ! wad exactly happen ?

25th february

happy bdae to kelvin !

ohhs well, he gonna in army soon. my group is getting smaller ! ): sigh ! chalet at 6,7,8 march. todae, was aching all over. so didnt went contem. heard tat my teacher was like mad woman. humphs. at night, bought cake to his hse. after tat, went buy spring chicken and burger. went home see them play mahjong.

21st february

celebrate kor bdae. morning went bf work place. rotted there and wait for him for 9 hrs plus ?! headed home. e celebration so lame. actually was an secret. dhen suddenly many ppl come. -.-'' mummy didnt prepare enough food. dhen they play mahjong till morning. i went sleep during half of e game.

2009-02-20T08:55:00.004+08:00

freak ! todae was almost late for school. been caught by laura lau for my shirt tuck out. she help me tucked in and disallow me to do it myself. make me so paiseh. so wad she is a teacher. in school, she got status. but not outside. pls, we're not child. we not living in e olden days. no offence. was so bad mood. pe, run 2.4. i hab no energy. but i reali run. wanna die lia0s. post till half way, went fire drill. -.-'' so lame. took less dhen 15min to b dismissed. i slacking, no mood and motivation to do F&N ! sigh. later still got CCA !

i dun wanna lose you. let start afresh, will you ?

19th february

school was BORING ! was sleeping in class during most of e lesson. i cant concentrate. was reali tired. went home. see tv and slept till 7 plus. wake up bath and meet bf go eat. went cc find ppl dhen go to hawker eat. bf won toto. he so lucky. he treat us eat western. i wanna eat burger ! ):

at night, having quarrel again. it like same routine. i'm reali tired, so was he. things gone wrong since tis yrs. i'm sad. i totally hab no mood.

18th february

hab game for pe. luckily didnt run 2.4. sigh. think i gonna fail ! school was boring. after school went dance, dhen meet bf at night. he was feeling sick. recently we hab been quarrel over LITTLE THING ! i n0e i been over too much. i will change it. believe me.

2009-02-17T10:29:00.003+08:00

as usual, i'm SLACKING IN F&N ! omggs. i dun think i got time to finish my coursework in time. sigh

16th february

went school. was not tired at all ! first time ! stay back for remedial after school. was lame. onli saty for less dhen 5 min. dhen went down canteen. saw ms liu. she thought i was going to skip dance. dhen she walked to me. before she speak, jolene say we jus release from remedial. ohhs well, no offence. c0s ms liu is NAGGY ! hahaas. dhen went dance. was not tired. after dance, headed home and bath and went lobang dear. went hawker eat and back home. dear so bad. throw his phone so many times. as his phone went into water. -.-''

15th february

reach home morning and slept throughout e whole afternoon. was energetic ! see them playing mahjong. dear win 100+ i think. hey ya ! 20+ is i win derhs hor ! hahaas.

14th february

was doing mask in e evening wib crystal, jiemin and yishi ! black currant flavour. its was so wet larhs. onli crystal and jiemin one so dry. e mask is okay larhs. must often use to see e result. it quite smooth. hahaas. after tat, went bugis to eat steamboat wib usual. 16 ppl i think if i'm not wrong. while eating, quarrel wib bf over e SMALLEST THING ! well, it been spoilt of mood. sigh. eat till 12+. took last bus home back, and cab back dear hse. i was too tired. fall asleep on e table. dear wake me up. and i slept. was chatting wib dear. suddenly. dear looked moody. i ask him why. he say he was tired. i'm sad over wad he say. i admit i'm not a good gf at all. sigh. feel bad. i promised him. i try to b as good as i can b. well, i reali hope we last !

2009-02-10T09:35:00.003+08:00

recently are too lazy to used com. i onli can rmb vivdly of my memories.

currently blogging in school. as usual, slacking in F & N class. later gonna do CIP project ! yeah ! miss lesson ! -.-'' sze yee wasnt here, make me sooooo bored ! i miss her. i got no one to talk to ! i wanna die lia0s. ):

9th february

was having serious headache so didnt went dance pratice. actually wan early dismissed from school. but last 3 periods happen to hab test. suay ! went home sleep till night. dhen went yishi hse to eat laska ! woohoo ! i missed her mother LASKA ! thai laska. dhen meet dear go eat dhen back home, sleep.

we hab been quarrel over little thing. i hope thing will improve from now on. no more hurt, jus onli a smile. (:

1st february

late wishes : HAPPI BDAE TO CRYSTAL ! grrr, she's 18 !!!! no more UNDERAGE lia0s. envy envy !!

2009-01-30T08:58:00.005+08:00

25th january

after eating reunion dinner, headed down to chinatown to find bf. rotted there from night 8+ to morning 7+. was so damn tired. when on my way going to chinatown, alight at geylang, thought of to buy frog porridge for bf. so many TIKO PEK looking. i feel so .......... -.-'' dhen alight at wrong stop at chinatown. so i hab been walking and rotting tat day. i ate my favourite SOTONG. wee !

26th january

sleep at bf hse till 11+. dhen cab home. fall asleep at home. dhen kana being wake up by grandfather bc0s of cousin hab come. he so KANG CHIONG. dots. they come here chatted wib my parent. i feel so bored. c0s me and them got age gap. after they go, bf come my hse play mahjong. till late.

27th january

being call by mother to wake up go aunt hse. i keep on drag drag drag. reach aunt hse ard 2. ate and play mahjong. dhen back home ard 7+. dhen bf ask me pei him go mac buy food. after tat back home mahjong till 4+ in e morning. bf felt asleep. and i take a file help him fan for 1 hrs+. hand tired. talked and chatted wib lewis, ah qiang and ah wee. they kept disturb me. most funny is they take my bf sleeping photo. after tat looking at him sleep till 5.30, dhen back to sleep.

28th january

firstly, happy bdae to sistax weitong. may his wishes come true. best of health !

didnt went school c0s too tired and overslept. pei bf went redhil. after tat back to meet kor. kor again being bluffed by a gal. poor thing. at night, leonard they all come my hse play poker. dhen they go eat. i didnt went. c0s tired. didnt hab a good sleep c0s coughing.

29th january

quarrel wib bf. got no mood. things hab change. but luckily, nth happen. at night meet go weihao hse play mahjong again. -.-'' dhen back home. they went play pool and lan. but i got to sleep. sigh ! so poor thing.

todae, currently blogging in school. at lab do coursework. so sian.

2009-01-23T13:21:00.002+08:00

21st january

went chinatown wib yishi at night. laughing at e bus so LOUD ! i love to chit chat and gossip wib yishi. she's entertaining. we went there for a very lame reason. tat is SOTONG ! omqqs. we are SOTONG CRAZY LOVERS ! its was damn nice. we ate 2 and a cup of sweet corn. on our way to find them, we bought tat kind of thing throw on floor will hab sound. we use it to throw leonard, OUR TARGET ! bus back and eat mac dhen back home.

today, having new yrs celebration in our school. luckily e performance was short. at first, was 2 girl age 14 and perform 'ruan gu gong' i was very impressed. they were fcuking flexible and their body like dislocate ?! so skinny ! after tat is wushu and us usals, indian dance and angklung. stupid dear, keep act cute. heh. gonna pack hse.

2009-01-17T18:40:00.004+08:00

well, recently was ' too busy to update blog '. humphs. O lvl i facing tis yrs. wondering wad results will i get.

monday, 12 january

went school and rotted. after school went SPCA for CIP project. during e journey there, my frenz ask me wad is e meaning of masturbate. i was like ... dhen i tell her ask teacher. all my frenz say i sure n0e derhs. say till i very TIKO ! PREVERT ! omqqs, for heaven sake mans ! -.-'' i get in close in contact wib a golden retreiever who got skin diseases. so poor thing. his name is MAMBO ! but soon, he be adopted. i pray and hope, ppl wun brought pet in impulse. to you, a pet may seem small and a leisure to keep it, but to them, you're his everything. pls b responsible for own actions. after tat, went back school. saw yishi and eve and chatted abt their result and course. wan go back, but SUAY ! saw ms liu being chas back to dance. sian. tio scolded for not wearing pe _l_ how i noe my CIP end early sia. idiot. grrr. dhen headed back home.

wednesday, 14 january

result of O lvl coursework. quite hard for me. sigh. after school, went dance. warm up and across e floor. wahs, too long didnt stretch. so la dao jing. PAIN ! it has become much more difficult. i'm stressed ! schoolwork ! syf ! drivinbg me crazy.

friday,16 january

morning dhen went home. was late for school and not feeling well. dearie was angry wib me for not going school. well, i simply n0e my fault. lucky leonard and his frenz accompany me went see doctor. having some chat wib leonard. was unhappy as he sco0ld me stupid for some reason, but he didnt n0e my pain. sigh. after tat went home and rotted ! grrr.

i'm hurt by ur action. sigh !afte you work, you seem so cold toward me. perhaps, is i think too much. i feel insecure. i scared of losing you. so become so yi shen yi gui. but i jus say dun nid you pei as in i'm thinking e opposite. but waited for you for 1 hrs plus, you didnt turn up. sadness felt by me. you get irritated so early. but you nvr n0e how stressed i'm too ! i'm tired, and shall not say further. i noe i hab been a crybaby for tis few days. but i cant control. you make me cry everynight. for not having to see you, ur cold attitude, make me feel scared. but you didnt n0e how i felt. i'm hurt, my heart is bleeding, can you see ?!

at night, went chinatown wib yishi. dearie brought us SOTONG ! fcuking nice ! but expensive. rotted for them till they finish work. chatted wib yishi alot and felt much more relieve. i gald to hab her. she my precious alright. no one can replaced her in my heart. same goes wib huiying and jiemin, they are my darlings ! hahaaas. did i sound mushy ?! after work, their boss bring them go geylang eat. after tat, alight at mac and went yishi hse and go leonard hse. watch final destination , but watched till fall asleep.

day after day
time pass away
and I just can't get you off my mind
nobody knows
I hide it inside
I keep on searching but i can't find
the courage to show
to letting you know
I've never felt so much love before
and once again I'm thinkin' about
takin' the easy way out
but if I let you goI will never know
what my life would be
holding you close to mewill I ever see
you smiling back at me
oh yeah
how will I know
if I let you go
night after night
I hear myself say
why can't this feeling just fade away
there's no one like you
you speak to my heart
it's such a shame
we're worlds apart
I'm too shy to ask
I'm too proud to lose
but sooner or later I've gotta choose
and once again
I'm thinkin' about
taking the easy way out
but if I let you goI will never know
what my life would be
holding you close to me
will I ever see
you smiling back at me
oh yeah
how will I know
if I let you go
if I let you go, oh baby
ooohonce
again I'm thinkin' about
takin' the easy way out
but if I let you go
I will never know
what my life would be
holding you close to me (close to me)
will I ever see
you smiling back at me
oh yeah
how will I know
if I let you go
but if I let you go
I will never know(oh baby)
will I ever see
you smiling back at me
oh yeah
How will I know(how will i know)
if I let you go

saturday, 17 january

wake up late for chingay. -.-'' went eat at lam bee. after tat back home. bath and rst awhile before mummy ask me go singapore post buy clothes. buy till $63.90. onli my clothes. she so dote on me mans ! after tat went home. now currently blogging at crystal hse as i'm helping her PAIN HSE ! she still say me no skill. wth. grrr. hao xin mei hao bao ! l0ls.

2009-01-05T18:45:00.003+08:00

woohoo ~ my com is FINALLY fixed after 2 weeks. my blog already got spider web lia0s. humphs, i jus update wad i rmb vividly abt tis past 2 weeks.

24th dec

countdown at town wib usuals. jas and eve came down. slack at arcade and went park lane. after tat, watch movie ( ip man ) quite nice. dhen slack and play wib spray. it was quite fun seeing them play as e sence was hilarious. dhen bus home. was very tired.

31st dec

countdown at ecp. quite alot ppl went there. more dhen i expected. we went there for BBQ. dear lobang me went 7-11. guess who i saw ?! is LEE WEI KIAT ! tat ass ! spray me. i jus wanna say HAPPY NEW YRS to him nia. -.-'' dear so good. keep BBQ things for me eat. wad i do was jus eat and play. nth else. very tired, wanna sleep. but my tent was being OCCUPIED ! hahaas, its okay, dhen sleep on dear leg. so cold. shivering !~ dhen ah qiang rod got fish and was being pull into sea. l0lols. morning, dear caught a stingray weighting ard 4.7kg. gonna hab BBQ soon to eat it. after tat, went home.

1st jan

school reopening tmr, yet i hab not been doing my homework and prepare for school. zzz. was playing till night for my last day of toning. my life is gonna b tough tmr ! O lvl !!

3rd jan

todae, we gonna BBQ again. went buy thing at sheng siong. after tat went home bath and waited for them prepare finished and went ecp. reach there ard 5++. er zii came shortly after tat. rotted at there, till e rest come. dhen headed to arcade. come back, dear BBQ stinbgray for me. its was damn nice. fullest wib LOVE ! hahaas, chatted wib yishi awhile dhen sleep. ohhs yahs, my dear was so caring. he n0e my back pain, went to buy 'gao yao bu' for me. so sweet of him. morning went back eat mac and sleep. afternoon, went find dear slack.

todae, school was so sian ! tmr lesson per normal. sigh ! my holiday homework is not done. gonna get scolded tmr.

2008-12-15T12:04:00.002+08:00

ytd, does not hab a nice sleep. its was cold. and dear keep turning here and there make me wake up ! morning, call him up for work, in e end, both fell back asleep. -.-'' dhen sleep till 11+ wake up. rotted till 1+ dhen headed back home, wash face, dhen went eat claypot rice. i'm addicted to it. its was kidda nice. dhen being left out as dear talk wib his frenz. dhen went shop and save and ntuc walk awhile dhen go crystal hse till 7+. went home bath, and went eat. e sotong i ate was damn nice ! i'm gonna eat it again ! ohhs well, dinner was on ah qiang ! thks him lahs. (: dhen back home, mahjonging again. i'm a santa. gib money away derhs santa. hahaas. gonna sleep.

2008-12-14T12:02:00.002+08:00

wake up at 3+ todae. dearwent aljunied and help me buy mexican chicken chop. its was quite nice lahs. dhen morale low. quarrel again. boring ! later gonna buy food for him. hope everything will b fine.

2008-12-13T11:49:00.003+08:00

morning went chingay practice. we're late. so e bus left. ohhs well, make us no mood to go, but huiying's mood are unaffected. in fact, she's excited ?! waited for bus 63. when bus come, yishi die die hold on to e public phone, dun wanna board ahead. but huiying keep pulling her wib BIG FORCE. left wib no choice, dragged our feet aboarding e bus. sigh ! reach there was hot. e practice was simply so SIANS ! BORING ! e costume display was being seen, its was so .............. RETRO is wad i can describe it. ohhs mans ! dhen headed back home and rotted waited for baoyu come. i fall asleep alot of times, stupid crystal go call me up ! grrrr.

baoyu come and help dye hair. its took us 3 hrs+ for her to dye and for me to highlight. dhen dear call us go eat steamboat. alot ppl going tis time, is ard 13. wahs, bicycle gang are we ! all rode bike there. its was dangerous at geylang there. too many CARS ! eat da chang jin again. -.-'' leonard they all press it can into small and go out throw away. if not, e bill will b damn expensive. all wanna broke lia0s ! its was damn full ! gonna b fat ! haiis ! after tat, being lobang to 'qing ren qiao' couple bridge. slack at there awhile, dhen off to east coast. nth to do so headed back home. i'm sleepy ! yawn.

thks dear, i'm reali happy. (:

2008-12-11T16:32:00.005+08:00

ytd went out all night. morning, eat breakfast wib dear. alright. leonard and yide keep complaining tat i eat porridge damn slow. dhen dear help me call porridge. i ate for 50mins i guess ?! after tat, he pei me home and went work.

come home, dun feel sleepy so online. chatted wib wei kiat, dhen meet him go aljunied find crystal and baoyu. crystal was reborning her hair. we waited and rot ! dhen wei kiat went home take chocolate for me. l0lols. he walked home and cabbed back e salon. dhen after crystal finish her reborning, went 116 eat chicken rice. after tat, back home.

ohhs well, everything is simply my fault. i'm tired. everytime, you say e same thing. its simply hurt. yeah, so wad he my ex ?! i oso got talk to you. everyone there can b my withness, yet, you simply accused me of being "scared to let ppl n0e", dhen dun b tgt all tis crap. wad ever. i'm angry. reali angry. i dunn0e why you will liddat. its not my fault at all. sigh. when going back, see you like angry, walk in to talk to you. you can jus easily tell me go find him, GO AHEAD ! well, i'm ur gf, dun treat me as a ball. you dun trust me, is wad i can say. its hurt when you say tat. you nvr realise tat ur attitude toward me is hot and cold. everything you said, is simply my wrongs, my faults. i got nth else to say. call you, oso being misunderstand. i shall not complain anymore. everytime, dun care my feeling, angry jiu can say everything hurting ?! dhen jiu hang my phone ?! alright, i done nth guilty, nth wrong. is meeting jus a frenz is wrong ?! can make you get so angry over it ?! go ur there eat got wrong ?! wtf. still say i purposely dun bring phone. say till i secretly go out wib him. ehhs, pls larhs. if i reali go out wib him, jiu wun appear at ur work place. wad ever you think, wad ever you say, i dun wanna care anymore. dun angry jiu saying all those unpleasant word. i simply fcuking hate it. FREAK ! you hang my phone so many times, yet, i onli too angry till hang one time, you jiu say bc0s of him wad ever SHIT ! dhen say wan let me go. fine, since you say sooo easily. no point tgt already. you dunn0e how hurt i'm. you onli think my fault, nvr think of my feeling. sua, everything my faults, no one to blame. i admit my fate.
still say i didnt respect you. wth. you got ur fear, does not hab to b all on me. i feel pressure, i feel stress. make me feel like wanna run away. hab you ever thought of me ?! our love is so fragile. cant withstand problems.

jealous make ppl turns ugly.

2008-12-08T09:01:00.002+08:00

ytd night, dear say something, tat make me damn sad. i cried so long till i managed to fall asleep. morning, peek at kor phone. saw wad he say to kor, hurt again. and cry. i feel so insecure. feel so lost. yeah, i believe we hold our own destiny, but i oso believe wad meant to b urs, will b urs. sigh. i onli can change myself to e better, so he will stay by me ?! hope so. at night, ah wee, kor, dear and me went geylang lor 8 eat dian xin. i think dear is bc0s he noe i'm sad trying to cheer me up. thks him. its was nice e dian xin. gonna miss it ! whoots ! after tat, went home.

2008-12-07T08:55:00.005+08:00

HAPPY BDAE HUIYING !

whoots, sweet 17th. meet them at 2, but all late. was kidda dulan larhs. huiying come down dhen slack at mac. taking photos. waiting for jiemin till 3 plus. rot ! bus to city hall. nth to walk, so decided to wait at new york while waiting for yishi they all. order our food as they will b late. having fun wib them. chatting, taking photos. rotted there from 4 plus to 7 plus till yishi they all arrived. was so paiseh, as we hab sit very long, our food hab long time ago finish lers. -.-'' ppl were waiting for seat for their dinner. staff was looking at us. yishi they all FINALLY arrived ! dhen they eat something, and we cut e cake. dhen mrt down to PS to watch bolt. bolt was a nice movie, should catch it ! it was comedy and CUTE ! dhen back home. was tired. meet up wib kelvin, jianhua and weitong at hawker, dhen they pei me home. thks sistax arhs ! hahaas. bath and sleep.

2008-12-06T08:44:00.000+08:00

todae, morning went chingay practice. its was so lame larhs. but i'm happy to get tgt wib my sistax ! simply love them much ! was having fun, but regreted for not joining PAYM derhs. its more fun there. come back, watch match at CC ! shag, i miss it when he play ! grrr. after tat went home as sistax they all wanna go town, but i lazy so didnt go ! was rotting at home in e afternoon. dhen meet dear they all go down hawker. they wanna hab a BIG FEAST ! they call BBQ stingray and sotong. fried oyster and BBQ chicken wing. was damn full. -.-'' dhen they start to call beer. weitong, for e sake of money, drank up e whole cup ! no money, no motivation to him ?! hahaas, was tired and dear send me home.

2008-12-05T08:51:00.002+08:00

having quarrel wib dear todae. sigh. simply no mood ! meet up wib yishi, leonard and jisheng for lunch. went 116 eat western. dhen BIG RAIN. after eating, went ntuc dhen went tnet. after tat, wanna meet dear for dinner. but he come hawker, was like treating me invisible ?! even i talk to him. no reply. sigh ! for some stupid reason, we quarrel.

can we last ?! i doubt it.

2008-12-01T09:21:00.001+08:00

arghs, i having cramp early in e morning. its bad to start a new mth tis way. so, rotted at home. no much appetite too. sigh. pain pain ! i'm suffering !

2008-11-30T09:22:00.002+08:00

meet up wib my SIS ! whoots. miss her soooo much larhs. pei her eat at hawker dhen headed to 64 to play basketball. alright. we are playing rough ! hahaas, me and huiying keep sntaching ball from each other. poor jiemin, she's not in my team so i oso snatch from her. (: its was enjoying. dhen headed to hawker and home.

2008-11-25T09:12:00.002+08:00

whoots, todae is dear off. rotted at home till afternoon, dhen went lunch wib dear. i suggest eating steamboat as we hab no where to go. dhen c0r ppl go. waited them finish work at night. dhen cab down to geylang eat da chang jin. its was nice and we eat till very very full. -.-'' gonna b fat. dhen waited kor godsis dhen headed to lavender pub. soooo sians. ppl are allow to smoke inside somemore. wtf. my eyes very pain. go there onli see them play pool and machine game. nth else ! and i nag to go home. dhen cab home ard 12+ ? my whole body got e smell.

2008-11-09T10:39:00.002+08:00

slept very early ytd night. woke up, see dear at my hse. he was feeling sick. so poor thing. dhen i see dvd. neglected him. keep watching dvd. dhen see e show ' bao chi tong hua' very nice ! dhen dear go play basketball, while i stay at home. having some unhappiness wib dear, but was fine. buy food went his hse find him and he rode me to CC. slack at there for awhile, dhen he sent me home. sleep.

2008-11-08T10:36:00.002+08:00

dear was feeling stress tis few days, yet i cant do anything. sigh ! dear come find me early morning. pei me watch dvd and my father came home. so i bath and went his hse. watch dvd and tv while he sleep. grrrr, alway left me alone ! dhen went back home rest. our feeling hab drifted. sigh.

2008-11-07T10:30:00.003+08:00

went dance. body was aching like hell. but bear wib e pain. dance was quite fun and time pass quickly. dhen went back home bath prepare go breathe. meet up wib crystal, ah wee and dear and went downstair find jiemin, yishi and kim. once i saw yishi, i gib her a big hug. i miss her lots ! dhen headed tnet and was heaving fun on bus. saw yide on another bus. so coincidence. alot of ppl go e activity. walk awhile, see see, very boring. so meet up wib huiying and went marina square. ate and went arcade. dhen jiemin and kim left early. can see they are not enjoying themselves. dhen cab home and rest.

2008-11-06T10:47:00.001+08:00

dear and kor didnt go work todae. haiis. dhen they go took mc. see dvd dhen went eat lunch and went tnet. rotted at there, whole body pain. unbearable pain ! sigh ! movement so slow like auntie. dhen they went hwker eat and i went home sleep.

2008-11-05T10:45:00.002+08:00

went to dance. ms shining class. owe her 3 milo for not coming her lessons. kana scold by ms liu. -.-'' got alot to catch up. my musscle is aching after e dance. too long nvr stretch. hab fun during lesson and went home. bath and rest.

2008-11-02T10:54:00.002+08:00

happy 16th bdae yo yeo sze yee, lai papa, lai HA MA !

she my best frenz wib QAD in class for e past 1 yrs. i love disturbing her. she is fun. hahaaas, next yrs our last yrs tgt. i gonna miss e fun. and i gonna treasure e time well.

2008-11-01T10:52:00.001+08:00

happi 18th bdae to LEONARD LEW JUN HONG !

he my frenz. a very good frenz. but we hab drift apart. sigh. i miss last time. when we get tgt, chatted everything. hope he find his happiness.

2008-10-30T10:50:00.001+08:00

HAPPI SWEET 16th TO LONGHAO !

msg him and didnt reply. i'm in a clubbing mood man !

2008-10-28T10:49:00.002+08:00

SWEET 16th BDAE TO TINGYI AKA PUDINGGG !

wish him but he didnt reply my msg. humphs ! i'm lazy and nth to blogggg.

2008-10-27T10:43:00.001+08:00

woke up, eat malaria pill without eating. end up. suffering. VOMIT ! dear was angry me, as he keep tell me eat lers dhen eat medicine. but i dun listen to him and say nvm. dhen went eat lunch wib dear and slack. and mahjong again. -.-''

2008-10-26T21:18:00.001+08:00

day 1 - 19th oct

arrived at siem reap international hotel at ard 9 plus singapore time. their time there is one hrs before singapore time.we headed to eat our breakfast. e things and table there are...... so my table of frenz, use tissuse and wipe it again. hab chicken noodle, but taste ok ok, but i didnt manager to eat finish. after breakfast, check in hotel and put our things. thks vic for helping me carry up to 3rd floor where my foom is.

set off to angkor wat. e weather ws damn hot ?! i was lazy to walk. but angkor wat is interesting, its big, unique and historical. while we are headed back to bus, many small kids are surrounding us to persuading us help them buy their products. alright, they are pitiful. they should b studying in school. but we didnt buy from them as e price not reasonable. went lunch. lunch was quite nice larhs.

raining, and we got to continue our walk at 'tree in temple'. its was fun and we got to climb here and there. dhen headed to a hill to see sunset. unfortunately, we reach there too early and e sky was foggy and cloudy, cant see sunset. sigh ! wasted ! dhen went back hotel bath and dinner time ! i was sweating like hell ! i wanna bath.

went back hotel, stupid locker cant open. spend plenty of time opening it. grrr. thks vic help me open and chengwei for lending me new locker. need to bath very quickly as time for meeting is soon ! but in e end still late !

dinner was having buffet. alright. we wear like ....... going market. -.-'' e food was not nice, so didnt eat many. vic they all was like, 'eat for revenge'. after tat went back hotel debrief. i was tired, so chatted wib chengwei till half jiu fall asleep.

day 2 - 20th oct

woke up late and was being fine $1 US. grrr. ytd air con was soooo cold till i cant sleep. QAD mp3 on so loud. set off to rice soup programme in a village. play wib e kids while some are cooking. there are so friendly and cute ?! they will come hug you auto derhs. after tat, went for a river cruise. so lame. -.-'' lunch at proyouth village. e food there was like, rice, vege and soup. gonna slim down lia0s. its was not nice oso. muslim food nicer. headed off to BBLC. we gonna walk 500m. cow dungs are everywhere. its smell, omqqs ?! faint* my life gonna suffer ! BBLC was small and stuffy.

went for road repair. sun was so merciless. gonna hab tanned skin soon ?! its was tiring, smelly. ): i wanna go home. but i cant gib up ! jiayou ! we gonna carry buckets of sand. after tat, dinner and debrief. and off to bath dhen sleep.

there is no growth in comfort zone,

there is no comfort in growth zone

happiness does not come from rich or poor.

there two sentence was being taught during debrief. meainingful right ?!

day 3 - 21st oct

different ppl are sick everyday, when will b my turn ?! braekfast, eat onli 1 slice of bread. todae gonna teach lesson. its was kidda bored. after lesson, play musical chair and i won ! l0lols, stupid sze yee make me giddy by dun stop e music. humphs ! play ' blow wind blow' and 'i love you' game. lunch and dhen went for road repair. boys are doting on gals. they keep carry 2 pills ! dhen dinner, bath, debrief and sleep. i was tired.

day 4 - 22th oct

teaching proverb. very hard to let them understand. everyday, same routine, woke up at 6.30, eat and prepare for lesson. lunch dhen road building, dinner and debrief dhen sleep. sigh ! i miss singapore. alright, todae, generator spoilt so hab to brush teeth wib water tat got mud taste. digusting. i was crying while brushing teeth. ): road building was raining. dinner finally got eggs ! whoots. vic keep scaring us on our way back. grrrr, i wan revenge ! saw shooting star. e sky there was beautiful ?! full of star.

day 5 - 23rd oct

lesson teaching proverbs and origami. during lunch, our turn to wash plate, sze yee fell down and her knee was swollen so she cant go road building. dunn0e wan piti or envy her. its was raining when go road building. my musscle was aching ! got to walk on rocky rock. and me and eileen run back to bath ! hahaas. i hab ppl to lobang me and QAD on motor to e place we ate and vic piggy back me back ! whoots. chatted and laughed tgt. i die die oso dun wanna get down walk. too tired. generator spoilt ! no electricity. lucky, i bath already.

day 6 - 24th oct

counted down to go back singapore. and todae is e last lesson. ohhs well, i feel ..... sad. we teach mass dance and play game. a guy sang song for me and chengwei. quite nice. i will miss e time here. ): visit a high school after lunch. waited very long for their director ( principal ) its was raining heavily. everyone was falling asleep. saw one of e student there. went to a class social interact and end wib a sone " top of the world ". on our way back, saw e student again. he request taking photo tgt. so we took, dhen they disia0 me, say onli me and him take tgt. -.-''

road building, we onli do ard 1 hrs plus. but e distance very long and rocky. saw e student again. so coincidence ?! took phot wib e workers dhen back BBLC. first to bath again ! bath finish e generator broke down. lucky ! ms khairin was sick. poor thing. get well soon ! dhen see cambodian frenz dance. hot dance ! dhen motor go and vic piggy back me back.

day 7 - 25th oct

breakfast, dhen pack up. its was sooooooo dusty. keep sneezing. walk to silk farm. so far. and chengwei and QAD was playing wib e silk worm. so disgusting can ?! went to e factory where they produce silk. chengwei and QAD ate e worm. omqqs. i gonna faint* QAD keep sucking e worm in her mouth dun wanna swallow.-.-'' on our way back to BBLC, saw a baby rat in e middle of road. vic throw it by e side of e grasss. cruellll. went back BBLC and take things and get ready to go. one of e student cor e in charge and ask me to listen. he oso wrote me letter tat took him 2 hrs ?! he say he love me in phone and letter. l0lols. i was shocked. he come pei me walk to proyouth village eat. i was soooo paiseh. he keep ask me for answer abt he love me. -.-'' i was like shy, say dunn0e. he cant bear to leave.

check in hotel and went to old market. BARGAIN TIME ! brought clothes and etc. nth to buy oso. back to hotel and went 'resturant' eat. quite nice. went night market. same as old market. -.-'' walk to lucky mall. finally got air con ! whoots. chengwei treat me and QAD ice cream. dhen sit tutu car back hotel. e driver went wrong place. alright, e ride was adventous and dangerous. debrief and sleep. come 'auntie'. SUAY ! dhen sleep at zann room.

day 8 - 26th oct

woke up prepare and went hotel. got to transfer plane. troublesome. dhen while transfer plane, we bought food eat, but hab to take away c0s we gonna board on plane. alright, mao mao is vomiting beside us, chengwei so bad. keep laughing. grrr. dhen in e end, we fall asleep. i miss cambodia, i reali reali miss. sigh ! reach singapore ard 1 plus. thks QAD and her father for riding me home. dhen msg dear. he was so happy larhs. eat malaria pill dhen eat seaweed. in e end, all i vomit out. -.-'' dhen dear bought tempura for us eat. its was nice ! dhen mahjong.

if ever i hab a chance, i wanna go cambodia again. although suffering, but its make me learn alot of things and experience.

2008-10-19T00:01:00.004+08:00

i'm still packing my things. dunn0e wad to pack. gal are more troublesome ?! hahaas. 3 more hrs i'm going cambodia. frenz, do miss me. hope e whole journey i b safe and sound. (: i miss my dear lots !

2008-10-18T23:15:00.002+08:00

ytd, dear ton at my hse. whoots, first time mans ! c0s mummy and daddy go malaysia ! no one at home !! hahaas, we on air con sleep. but dear was not use to. he keep sneeze and cant get to sleep. i was waken up by his turning many times. i still help him cover blanket. wow, wad a simple life right ?! hahaas. morning, wake up didnt see dear. he took my kep go out, and close my door. i n0e he sure dunn0e how open my door. end up, as i guess. hahaas, wanna pretend to b sleeping, but like very bad. dear fry wu dong mian for me. not bad larhs. he oso first time frying. dhen watch dvd and wait for ah qiang come and play mahjong.

went citi plaza change money. unfortunately, didnt get smaller change. got to change it at air port. dhen walk back and buy fish soup as dear suffering from flu. waited so long. grrr. buy mac and went home.

i'm going to pack my stuff. omqqs, so late. will i able to pack finish ?!

2008-10-17T23:00:00.003+08:00

grrr, woke up late and didnt went school. but hab to go school to take medicine and t-shirt for e trip. so 1 plus, while i was abt to go off, rain so big. i dun wanna b late, so walk wib e rain carrying a umbrella. but, my school still wet, make me soooo uncomfortable. homeworks alot ! sigh. dhen learn dance, breifing and was being release after tat. hear mummy nagging awhile c0s she going malaysia, and i'm going cambodia. after they went off, dear come my hse, dhen crystal. dhen they play mahjong, while i was in room, wib air con, enjoying my show. my date is a vampire 2 !

sorrie dear, i n0e i not good in expressing my words.

2008-10-16T22:56:00.002+08:00

todae, didnt went school too. too lazy perharps. me and dear hab quarrel over e same issuse over and over again. sadly, i mention e word ' break up' again. and i cause dear to b very sad. sigh, he so caring yet, i still broke his heart.

dear, i'm tired. do understand me. we stand in different position. sigh. dear, i dun wanna lose you. i'm a timid gal. i n0e i not so wei da. i n0e i'm silly. i n0e my attitude and thinking cause you alot unhappiness and miserable.

2008-10-15T22:52:00.002+08:00

todae, school admin day. so didnt went school. dear come find me in e morning i guess ?! dhen we watch tv and chatted. finally, i carry out all my courage and tell him my troubles and sadness. i cry when i say tat. but he promised me not to tell. he wasnt happy. i n0e he wasnt. when play mahjong, he throughout face black black. after dhen. back home sleep.

sorrie dear. and oso thks. ur words are sweet. i n0e you will protect me. i love you. but sorrie to cause you miserable. but i dun wan lie to you anymore. sigh.

2008-10-14T07:07:00.002+08:00

todae, we plan tgt not to go school. as results all gotten. sleep till 11 plus todae. dhen meet precious go eat lunch. he was having stomach upset. sigh, poor him. kana torture by his own stomach. hahaas. went ntuc walk alone while waiting for him. decide to cook tempura golen mushroom. buy e ingredients dhen pei crystal go see doctor. clinic open at 6.30, 1 more hrs to go. so went mac eat and sae mummy chris. he so flirttt larhs. HONGSTER HIM ! grrr. i disia0 and suan him. hahaas, he almost cant take it ?! dhen went clinic and home. dhen prepare to cook. its turn out quite nice ?! but weird as lack of one dunn0e wad powder. sigh ! i wanna eat fried sotonggg.

cheer up CRYTSAL, dun scare urself. mayb we dun understand ur pain. but we are there to support you. (: JIAYOU !

tmr interview ?! or will continue to drag onnn.

2008-10-13T07:02:00.002+08:00

i drag myself from my sleep. almost cant wake up. -.-'' went school. found out tat i pass my english. whoots. fail maths, science, geography, f&n. sigh. kidda disappointed wib my results larhs. after school, went briefing till 6 plus. omqqqs. cambodia trip is coming ! i dunn0e shall i b joyful over it ?! c0s i b missing precious mucchh. ): 8 days is long ! somemore, there is very dangerous ?! and ppl there are so conservative. got alot of rule and their language is soooo hard to pronunce. went home and buy food.

ohhs well, we gonna walk in interview for job. but dunn0e will drag till when dhen interview. -.-'' i dun wanna lead my life in tis. at least, get a part time job still can earn money and at e same way, kill time ?!

i'm tired, gonna sleep.

2008-10-12T06:57:00.002+08:00

morning. suddenly wake up. oso dunn0e why. strange* dhen went toilet, see precious sleeping at living room. -.-'' dun wanna disturb him. as he woke up easily. so went back sleep. precious dhen come my room sleep. but end up, we both oso cant sleep. -.-'' dhen precious gonna buy food for us. i lazy gooo. hahaas. dhen he went wib kor kor to buy food. CRYSTAL ! he having flu right ?! hahaas* she kill me if i say out ?! humphs. they buy pig organs soup when my both choosy kor dun eat pig organs all tat ?! they are sooo lame. after tat, play mahjong again.

sigh, i'm worry for my results.

2008-10-11T06:52:00.002+08:00

my everyday was jus like e same. sigh. wake up, rotted. see dvd, mahjong and sleep. -.-'' i'm getting bored. okay, now i was hoping for next clubbing to come. its been a long time since i went. todae, precious bought food from ASTRONS for me. omqqs. so sweet of him. he still take cab come bc0s scared food cold. its was kidda cheap but expensive for a meal ?! after finish eating, watch tv in room while precious watch his 'movie' at living room. dhen play mahjong when ah qiang come.

night, went buy mac for them. bought one packet hor fun for daddy and 3 meals of mcspicy. like auntie carry sooo much. -.-'' but it worth buying for precious. its was heavy too. hand was tired. ): eat lers, pei them awhile, jiu sleep. tired. yawn !

beauty sleep.

2008-10-10T06:48:00.002+08:00

HAPPI 16th BDAE JOLENE qin ai de.
sweet 16th arhs.
gonna hab alot of fun ?!

todae overslept, didnt wake up go school. sorrie qad, didnt mean to left you alone larhs. reali cant wake up. -.-'' think c0s ytd walk till tired. anddd, i swear no more high heels next shopping. grrr. and ytd was kidda embarrased. saw wan, zul and amir. so suayyy. todae, gonna rot at home. sigh.

i gonna work during holiday !

2008-10-09T00:18:00.000+08:00

finally ! end of exams ! whoots ! SHOPPING TIME !

meeting crystal went bugis walk walk shop shop. meet her ard 3. dhen i was late. go long john eat dhen shop. see some nice clothes and shorts. in e end. onli buy 1 pants, shirt and slippers. humphs ! my leg sooooo tired. buy sushi and after tat quarrel wib him. so pei crystal went buy her things. dhen go back to e shop where i saw e pants, try e pants soooo many times. wanna buy pink colour no more so brought a black one. me and crystal brought same one. its nice. dhen buy tempura and cab home play mahjong.

dear, i'm sorrie for breaking my promise, i dun wish to. but i reali dun feel secure. sigh.

2008-10-08T00:11:00.000+08:00

F&N paper was normal, but i didnt n0e how to do. so i wrote crap. teacher gonna faint wan she see it ?! wakakaas. went home meet ah wee and precious go eat. dhen on our way, saw yishi and she go tgt. when eating, having a great time wib yishi, joke, talk abt past. dhen decide went tnet sing songs. its gonna rain. but i hab my umbrella. hohoho. went yishi hse, play wib her hamster while waiting her bath. slack for 1 hrs and ah wee and precious are waiting for us. dhen take clothes back home and CHOCOLATE FROM YISHI FRIDGE. l0lols. she got 1 whole box. dhen went down, thought my handphone left in yishi's hse, went back again, but handphone was wib me.

tmr last paper. whoots ! gonna shopping !

msg jiemin ask her come down. c0r ah qiang whole day but no listen. all thought he disappear. wanna go his hse find him. dhen he c0r us say he OT. dhen they go eat, i go home see tv and bath. going pei them play mahjong. zzz. -.-''

2008-10-07T00:07:00.002+08:00

todae, no paper. so rotted at home. sigh ! meet precious go eat lunch, chatted dhen went shop and save walk. humphs. i was shocked. he hab e same habit as me. SMELL SHAMPOO ! l0lols. and he oso hab e same thinking of leading simple life. like, free go shop for daily products and food. its simple, but many ppl dun go for it and prefer complicated. after tat, went home.

at night see them play mahjong.
tmr F&N gonna study ! hope will b easy, too much to memorise.

2008-10-06T23:59:00.002+08:00

todae, having chinese and chemistry paper. omqqs ?! its damn hard l0rhs. all i dunn0e e chapter come out. -.-'' shag mans ! ): after tat, went changi hospital for jabs to go for cambodia. take height and weight, found myself shorter and slim down 1 kg+ ?! wakakaas. taking jabs nid to go through many stages. see doctor, take high blood pressure all tat. so troublesome. i was so scared of taking it. unfortunately, i was e first. i almost crying out. PAIN ! dhen waited and take shuttle bus go simei. eaten and shop awhile in east point. mrt home. going meet them at ah qiang hse, but conclusion, come my hse.

quarrel wib precious. he sometimes, simply sux ! grrr, he gonna pissed me off, but i n0e, in e end. we b okay. humphs.

2008-10-05T18:41:00.000+08:00

i rmb vividly tat precious disturb me from my sleep ytd. grrrrr. ytd night, they go again. i was too tired, so didnt wake up go. wake up in e middle of night, c0s stomach pain. -.-'' morning, precious brought me zhong zi. hahaas, he know i wun eat if he nvr buy, so sweet of him. dhen they went converse warehouse. dear brought me 1 shorts 1 pants. thks. dhen went ah qiang hse play mahjong. air con ! whoots. dhen i was playing word search puzzle. was fun larhs. dhen compete wib dear, he lose to me. wakakaka ! after tat went home sleep.

i miss him, he gonna work soon.

2008-10-04T18:36:00.002+08:00

yawn, jus come back from east coast. i'm tired although i went there still sleep in tent. reach home ard 9 plus, dhen slack. out of e sudden, a small eagle fly into my hse. precious was trying to get him off, but instead his flew in. -.-'' i was scared. c0s e eagle wib red eyes, so FIERCE. humphs. dhen he go closed windows and catch it wib net. i go c0r ah wee. bleahhs. dhen e eagle trying to flew away, ah wee accidentally press on its tail of feathers, and broke it. omqqs, it was so pathetic larhs e eagle. actually was so nice and pretty, after tat, become ugly duckling. -.-'' l0lols. e eagle oso shit on my room, its too scared. dhen decided to let him off, and he flew as far as he could. after tat, bath and sleep.

so tired, but at least, its was interesting.

2008-10-03T18:26:00.002+08:00

after my paper, went back home. rotted. humphs. dhen ah wee and precious cook BAK KUT TAY for me. hahaas, although it wasnt very nice, but too me, its reali nice. c0s precious scare i say spicy. after tat, rotted and went kelvin hse. they chat wib his daddy, dhen go back my hse downstair. precious wasnt reali happi and angry. dhen quarrel. sigh ! after tat, play mahjong and went east coast fishing. his gonna lobang me. (:

quarrel over some stupid things. but its okay after awhile. believe in me. and dun compare both of us tgt lers. its hurt. sorrie tat i n0e and still keep on msg him.

precious, no more quarreling and say out ur worries.
iloveyou. x3

2008-10-02T16:19:00.000+08:00

todae no exams. so no nid go school. but still, wake up early to c0r kor wake up for work. humphs ! dhen precious come pei me, we chatted. and promised each other not to bc0s of angry jiu mention BREAK ! wakakaas, i reali great things are going on smootly for me and him. seriously, i dunn0e whether will we last. but now, i jus wan cherish him. after tat, went back sleep went precios went off. he was tired, he hardly sleep. poor thing. heart pain. ):

at night, they playing mahjong again. sigh.

okay, i kidda surprise by ur action. zzz. it was sooooo random and sudden. i dun reali believe it. even you prove, its nid time. i dun like to waste ppl time. and we already break for 2 yrs plau and haven been contacting wib each other. out of sudden ?! you liddat ?! who will believe ?! zzz/ go find one who love you and you love better dhen wasting ur time on me. good luck in finding ur ms RIGHT ! (:

2008-10-01T15:41:00.002+08:00

ytd pei them play mahjong till morning 5 plus. zzz. cant tahan so went sleep. i hope, they wun play mahjong todae.

wake up ard 5 plus. watch tv and after tat, they play mahjong again. i alway saw black face. zzz. more blacker dhen bao gong larhs. -.-'' grrrr. everytime mahjong, didnt they hab something better to do ?! sigh !

wad kind of life i'm leading ?!

2008-09-30T15:36:00.002+08:00

whoots. todae paper end damn early. reach home and rest. i was tired larhs. at night, pet them play mahjong again. -.-'' i'm kidda sians wib my life ! grrr. humphs. anyway, went mac buy food to eat. c0s ppl make me angry, but didnt blame him, he wasnt feeling well too. saw a senerio at mac. a lady, accused a guy for stealing her wallet when e wallet actually belong to e guy. l0lols. dhen she keep saying, " why you punch me ? " its scary larhs. coincidence, i saw longhao and ken. l0lols. -.-'' dhen e gal dunn0e why throw e man's wallet and started to run and throw mac's things like e tray, flower pot, etc. dhen e manager come stop her, she say, " you are harrasing me" zzz. and oso say " e police will not come" dots. being a kpo wasnt good, i quickly go out of e mac. last sence i saw was she throw a pictures hanging on e wall, and e glass was broken.

dun treat me like tis next time.

2008-09-29T19:59:00.000+08:00

after ytd quarrel, didnt hab e mood to go for exams. sigh. but did i hab a choice ?! i doubt so. after 1st paper, he say let b frenz. i totally no more mood to study or do my second paper. at e end. i 10 plus marks nvr do. sigh. i hope i pass e paper. went home. i feel like crying in school.

he todae come out, should b happy instead of sad. but things gone to tis way. but luckily, we are fine. (: i hope we b fine from now. i reali tired of quarreling lers.

precious, let us last long.

2008-09-28T20:26:00.003+08:00

todae, wake up kidda early watch tv. after tat, rottted till playing mahjong. i hab no heart to study. i guess. i dun deserve to b rewarded wib good marks. sigh. MOTIVATION !

okay, i n0e i a sux gf, i cant b e gf you wanna. cant b e gf you wish for. i dunn0e wad to say. if you feel tired, hard to bear, let's put everything to e end. tis is e last resort. i n0e, deep down in my heart, i got a millions of unwillingness. you're sweet toward me. you're e last person i would ever wan to hurt. sigh. i n0e i hab alots weakness. accpeting it does not help. i dun wan b selfish. i dun wan you keep give in to me. everytime we quarrel over e phone, its reali break my heart. sigh. frankly, i didnt feel any secure. i reali dread of getting heart broken again. i cant control my heart. i jus wan control myself for feeling real deep. i n0e you oso got e bad experiences before. its seem little things we oso cant get along well. well, i guess i hab to blame myself. as all fault lies wib me. dreadful, scared, afraid, sadness, heart breaks, all tis i will feel when i was wib you. i n0e i hab to trust and believe you. but, i dunn0e why, i simply cant do it fully. i'm sorrie. i hab given you pressure, stressed, unhappiness, sadness, and nvr been able to gib you at least abit of happiness you wish for. am i a super duper lousy gf ?! YES, I AM ! i dun wish for anything. if we reali unsuitable, why not dun waste each other time and effort, and jus let go ?! i'm tired, and i'm sure you are too. as i say, 2 person reali love each other does not mean they will last as e person might not b ur MR/MS RIGHT. sigh. i n0e i treat frenz better. c0s i dun wan b ungrateful type of frenz. i n0e i was being selfish to you. i n0e you was already not happy in e beginning. but you dun wan say c0s you wan prevent quarrel. you say you scared i angry. so dun wan say. in ur heart. i reali got so petty ?! if reali you think so, i hab nth to say. you alway say tat i dun treat you as bf, wad you wan me to do ?! ): i'm a total failure.

disappointment. precious, i reali scared.
will we b fine ?! irealidolovehimmuch. nvr wanna to leave him.

2008-09-27T12:17:00.002+08:00

SWEET HAPPI 18th TO KWEK SHIGUAN LAOPO !

heh, laopo, see i so good, nvr wish you belated like you wish me ?! i got heart wor. hahaas, 18 lia0s. dun so IMMATURE ! its time to GROW UP ! wakakaaas. meet up very very soon. i misses e past damn lots.

was rotting like hell l0rhs. nth to do, no tv watch. at e end, play mahjong. -.-'' okay, i think i'm sinful bc0s i should revise instead of study. ohhs mans ! but i reali needed some break although i think n0w cant. i gonna b mad, real mad ! from afternoon play till night, dhen till midnight ! after tat, went sleep.

humphs. so ass, bluff me he downstair my hse. okay, i didnt mean to lost temper but. i dunn0e why i lost it. you can say me petty or wad. but when you reali do miss a person which you haven been seen for long, and they play tis prank back to you, you will understand how i feel. disappointment. haiis. i hope, we reali gonna to b fine. (:

everything was fine after some arguments.

2 more days ! poor him. ):

2008-09-26T12:10:00.002+08:00

hohoho. ytd nvr revise my SS at all, instead watching tv and sleep. if i ever fail it, i wun b surprised larhs. but did try my bes wake up at e morning and memorise. does last minutes help ?! i doubt so. laugh * okay, todae papers end early at 9.30. sigh. think gonna rot at home. SS paper wasnt reali hard. if got memorise, sure pass i guess ?! okay, for e past 1 hrs 30 min. i been writing non-stop ?! hand damn pain l0rhs. ): no time too write. sigh. i didnt n0e how do e SBQ, and i anyhow write. didnt n0t wad i was writing, i doubt e teacher will b able to understand ?! sad* c0r crystal ask her pei me go eat duck porridge, but her mum cook. too bad, go back home rottttt.

precious, 3 more days can see you lers. hab you been behaving urself ?!

irealidomisshim.

2008-09-25T11:00:00.002+08:00

wahs. i kidda surprise he did read and find my blog. he must b very bo lia0s ?! humphs ! okay, let start wib my exams today. todae morning, wake up kidda early to memorise my geography. my first paper is english, and both my essays is either too long or too short. will i b penalize ?! sigh ! dhen, come my disappointment is e geography. i study derhs onli come up little, but most marks are gone. FLY FLY AWAY ! zzz. i dun hab any to blame expect for myself of not studying. i must work hard mans ! GOGOGO ! tmr SS paper. memorizing again. -.-''

i miss him lots.

2008-09-24T18:37:00.004+08:00

HAPPY 17th BDAE TO LEE WEI KIAT !

sigh ! tmr is e actual exams. todae reach home. study some vocab and geography. damn it ! i cant memorise and focus on it. grrr. must wake up early in e morning dhen will study and memorise better ?! todae, having stomach cramp. its was reali reali pain. went home, actually wanna study, but pain till fall sleep unknowingly. zzz. how am i going to pass my exams in tis manner ?! haiis.

grrr. no mood study.

2008-09-23T18:34:00.003+08:00

grrr, exams stress are going to befallen to me. i must STUDYYY ! tat wad i told myself but cant do it mans ! sigh ! i alway drag till last minutes. zzz. todae school was fine and went back home sleep. another day is wasted instead of studying. sigh.

wad can motivate me to study ?!

2008-09-22T14:29:00.002+08:00

HAPPI 16th BDAE TO LAI XIAO ZI AKA NG XUE LING !

went school todae. todae jus like wasting of time going school. did nth much. zzz. much alot lesson. decided to skip chinese as temptation of going home rest is strong. so went home, study awhile chemistry dhen watch tv and sleep. wake up eat, bath watch tv went back sleep again

exams exams exams. stressful period.

2008-09-21T14:24:00.002+08:00

after coming back from chinese garden, they gonna play overnight mahjong. zzz. they so got e energy sia. i wasnt feeling well but still accompany him. i eat medicine, apply feng you. but it seems does not help much. after they play finish, went sleep. was tired larhs.

wake up, rot at home. dhen went back dinner c0s super duper HUNGRY ! still help kor kor they all buy. at first was buying 3 sets. already very heavy and like auntie. dhen kor c0r and asked me help him. i was angry c0s i already leave mac lia0s. he dulan and shouted at me. wtf. help him buy still nid kana scold. but nvm, went back mac and buy. ppl thought i crazy. carrying 4 sets of meals back home was torturing. zzz. i would nvr volunteer to buy food again.

2008-09-20T14:18:00.007+08:00

todae, i cry bc0s he shouted at me. so fierce larhs. grrr. but he say sorrie afterward larhs. he say wanna took pic wib me but i dun wan. he kidda disappointed. keep saying wad ever he wan me do, i wun do it. other ppl ask sure will do it. zzz. after tat, he went work i go sleep. dhen wake up, play mahjong awhile dhen prepare go chinese garden.

i wanna see e lighting so much ! hahaas. its was reali very nice althought i wasn't feeling very well. stomach pain. awww. how unbearable pain for me. hab some unhappiness but its still okay and enjoyable. thks him for taking free tickets larhs. (:

some random pictures uploaded, wasnt very clear. sad*

2008-09-19T17:47:00.002+08:00

finally. i went school todae. hahaas. school was fine. but after school, hab to stay back to wash cars. its wasnt easy as we think, somemore, e weather was HOT ! burning ! LUCKY, we onli nid wash 3 cars. after tat, went home sleep. wake up, play mahjong awhile, went back sleep again. i was jus like a pig mans !

anyway, i'm sorrie i didnt go out meet you. sigh.

how can i b a good gf ?! how can i b e gal you wanna ?!

2008-09-18T17:41:00.004+08:00

awww, didnt go school todae as homework not print. mayb, its jus an excuse for my lazyness. c0r leonard ask him pei me go poly clinic. i was shocked. he reali woke up. wait for him prepare dhen go lers. he so SLOW ! grrr, make me wait. after tat, waited and see doctor. okay, e doctor's treatment was funny ?! i dunn0e how explain it. he ask me do some stupid reactions. zzz. dhen went eat duck porridge dhen went mac as leonard wan pang sai. l0lols. he so long l0rhs ! after tat went home. rest ! hahaas. thks him for pei me larhs. so gald l0rhs. (: after tat, sleep and wake up play mahjong.

hahaas. i received a very cute dough make by him. he spent 3 hrs plus making it. although it wasnt very nice. but i reali appraciate he got e heart and sincere to make it. it nid alot patience. anyway. i like it alot alot. (:

tmr must go school !

2008-09-17T07:37:00.002+08:00

long time didnt overslept lia0s. or perhaps, i should say mayb i purposely wanna overslept. c0s i didnt do alot homework. plus. i'm lazy. i wanna some rest. but exams coming. i got to buck up and go school. todae, i b predicting i will b rotting at home. humphs ! sians

nid some rest.

2008-09-16T07:37:00.002+08:00

whoots, todae i got to laugh my ass out mans ! after school go see them wash cars. -.-'' so lame larhs. dhen got release, and while walking home. saw yishi at canteen. she ask me go singapore post wib her, i agree. its been a long long time since i go out wib her ?! hahaas, we reach e popular and its was close for stocking check till 4. so went eat kfc. l0lols. at kfc, we talked alot of funny funny thing and hab a great laugh. e funniest part is when yishi drop her yogurt. heh. dhen went home and do homework.

i must resist to temptation.

2008-09-15T07:37:00.004+08:00

awww, its anothwer beginning of e weeks. SIAN is wad i can say and think. todae school was fine, but i keep falling asleep. temptation of skipping chinese lessons is overwhelming. but, no choice, hab to drag myself go. do chinese compo, i was jus at there rot ?! no heart to do. sigh !

bored with works.

2008-09-14T21:23:00.002+08:00

wake up at 3am. saw something. opps. zzz. c0s i slept from ytd 6 plus till n0w. sigh ! family ties are so weak ?! shushu's family are so bad to him. i dunn0e why he still care for it mans ! mayb i hab no rights to comment. but, i feel not worth for him. drag him come my hse sleep. :) but nvr do anything ! dhen i DID SOMETHING ! A BIG MISTAKES ?! hahaas. i shall not say out. if not, SHE KILL ME ! SHE A MONSTER ! wakakaas. dhen rot at home whole day.

opps, did i do e right thing ?!

2008-09-13T21:19:00.000+08:00

morning, wake up meet kor at safra. he wanna go interview, so me and shushu pei him. kor is so choosy abt finding job. zzz. say pay not good or not suitable. -.-'' if reali liddat, when will he able to get a job ?! lucky shushu clever. c0r e company using kor's name. after his interview, nid wait till afternoon dhen n0e. so went eat dhen home sweet home. i was being chased to go home sleep. reach home. slept for 4 hrs plus, wake up see tv, bath and eat, dhen went back sleep again. -.-'' same, they playing mahjong again ! grrr.

is mahjong tat nice to play ?!